Some days I just wish

[joavi]

I'd get a hart attack and die.
Cause I will not commit suicide.
And don't ask me why I'll need a full year to explain so that you can understand half of whats going on in my crappy life and why I'm sick of it.
DAMN ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTT FUCK MY CRAPLIFE FULL OF SHIT

[monaohio]

there are lots of days in my life where i wish and wonder why i was not born a girl

[waughorama]

Care to elaborate? From personal experience, talking helps. There are people here that will listen.

[joavi]

Care to elaborate? From personal experience, talking helps. There are people here that will listen.

I don't really like to TYPE my problems
don't find it does much to me

[Vagenvy]

Well mona I wonder every day why I was not born a girl. I wish that more than just some days. I so desperately wish I was female instead of male.

[Realist]

joavi, don't you have a close friend who you can discuss privately your feelings?

It might be prudent to take your worries to a professional counselor, or psychiatrist.

Many times, just talking to a discreet friend, you may be able to solve your own problems.

Don't give up!

[joavi]

joavi, don't you have a close friend who you can discuss privately your feelings?

It might be prudent to take your worries to a professional counselor, or psychiatrist.

Many times, just talking to a discreet friend, you may be able to solve your own problems.

Don't give up!

Never had a friend who was available whenever I needed it.
And talking to a gay friend (wich I had for a while but he's married and works at the army so we don't talk anymore) isn't the same cause he'll always take the gay-side and make it positive.
And I don't have friends, really zero.
And the straight friends I had I would NEVER tell any gay-side of me, cause
a- they'd think I'm hitting on them and stop talking to me
b- they'll be discusted and stop talking to me,
c- they'll go tell everyone and say "don't tell anyone" and that person will do the same untill everyone knows
d- I wouldn't even fomfortable saying what really bothers me on the gay-me

[void()]

Never had a friend who was available whenever I needed it.
And talking to a gay friend (wich I had for a while but he's married and works at the army so we don't talk anymore) isn't the same cause he'll always take the gay-side and make it positive.
And I don't have friends, really zero.
And the straight friends I had I would NEVER tell any gay-side of me, cause
a- they'd think I'm hitting on them and stop talking to me
b- they'll be discusted and stop talking to me,
c- they'll go tell everyone and say "don't tell anyone" and that person will do the same untill everyone knows
d- I wouldn't even fomfortable saying what really bothers me on the gay-me

You have medics, or rescue squad workers, emergency medical technicians? If so,
go visit a rescue squad building, ask to talk to someone discretely. Most will have
a basic comprehension of things and keep confidences.

Odd as it may sound from an atheist, you may consider talking to clergy or a
priest. They too can suspend judgement and be confidential. Another outlet
may lie in a free clinic, nurses often are more "aware" of things than they
admit. Ask to be refereed to a group of friends with a bisexual bend.

[joavi]

You have medics, or rescue squad workers, emergency medical technicians? If so,
go visit a rescue squad building, ask to talk to someone discretely. Most will have
a basic comprehension of things and keep confidences.

Odd as it may sound from an atheist, you may consider talking to clergy or a
priest. They too can suspend judgement and be confidential. Another outlet
may lie in a free clinic, nurses often are more "aware" of things than they
admit. Ask to be refereed to a group of friends with a bisexual bend.

I'm not christian or any of those religions.
And I don't believe in talking to these sort of people (priest like)

[Realist]

joavi, I hear only excuses from you. You seem angry and depressed, almost like you're enjoying your misery. It appears that you're not willing to make real friends. I get the idea that you're paranoid, feeling that others are out to get you....everyone is against you. Your attitude is not conducive to endearing others to you.

Some of the advice I've read above is viable and helpful, but you return with excuses, excuses.

There are those who seem to be happiest when they are miserable...you appear to be one of those people. I'm sorry, but you will never achieve any kind of peace, until you realize that your problems will never go away, until you take the responsibility for yourself.

I hope you get help soon, because I see nothing rewarding in your future, if you don't.

[void()]

joavi, I hear only excuses from you. You seem angry and depressed, almost like you're enjoying your misery. It appears that you're not willing to make real friends. I get the idea that you're paranoid, feeling that others are out to get you....everyone is against you. Your attitude is not conducive to endearing others to you.

Some of the advice I've read above is viable and helpful, but you return with excuses, excuses.

There are those who seem to be happiest when they are miserable...you appear to be one of those people. I'm sorry, but you will never achieve any kind of peace, until you realize that your problems will never go away, until you take the responsibility for yourself.

I hope you get help soon, because I see nothing rewarding in your future, if you don't.

Find myself in agreement with Realist. You don't need to be of any religion to
speak to a priest of any religion. Most are more than happy to talk, consider
it part of their "service".

Can understand a certain degree of hesitation or anxiety in approaching others.
But it seems you're already deciding to build a wall, brick by brick. Any excuse
to dismiss others works in such a case, and it falls beyond the scope of
understanding.

I once used to build such walls. Found the cause often was hate born from
fear. Now, I try to not understand fear as understanding it binds one by it.

Wish you the best in your journeys. *brotherly and friendly hug* Be safe
and well.

[Realist]

Mi Mendoza, or whoever she is, wrote: "Why don't you both get the surgery and chop off your dick and balls, get fake tits, and a fake vagina?"

That's it for me..............Adios!