Coming to terms with being a cocksucker?

[camelblue]

I love hearing about men talk about sucking cock and why they like cum. The thoughts of perversion and humiliation for me, are big factors. I like feeling inferior. I'm otherwise straight in every other aspect other than my love for dick. I'm not really interested in men or relationships, but I just love the idea of pleasing a cock. It's almost as if, even though the cock belongs to the guy I'm with, it really belongs to both of us in that moment. We are both in that moment focusing only on penis. I'm focused on sucking, he's focused on experiencing the feelings of being sucked. Neither of our lives matter, all that matters is continuing to pleasure that penis.


In a way we both submit to penis. Almost like submitting to god. I submit to the power another man's penis has over me, and he submits to the power of his sexual urges which he may or may not regret after he cums. But we both give into this higher power that has control over us. I'm inferior to the power of penis. That's why I think I like dominant alpha type of guys, because I really get bossed around by his penis. Love a guy pushing my head towards his cock, love him slapping his thick meat all over my face and on my tongue, love feeling him try to ram his shaft into my throat. The aggression and power of male energy is intoxicating.




To me, a cock is what makes a man, a man. Men and women can both have muscles and masculine features, but cock and sperm is what really what makes him a man. I love everything visual about cocks, the balls, the shaft, the round head. I really question though why I feel this way, I'd really like to find a way to go back into my childhood and figure out how I ended up with this desire.




Sadly, like most men in my situation (Closeted bisexual), I don't get to act on these fantasies enough for whatever reason. I'm jealous of guys like you that really get to live this life more fully. I'm trying to figure out a way to improve in that area and work up the nerve to meet up with men more often. I think part of the reason is, I know that deep down, if I'm going to meet a man to suck his dick, I want to swallow his sperm. I want to swallow all of it. But I'm still afraid of the actual event. I'm afraid that I'll chicken out, or that the reality won't be as good as the fantasy is, so I end up just not meeting up. I have pretty bad anxiety so I think it plays a role in me having second doubts. I wish I just had my own gloryhole to be honest haha...


I really feel though that deep down, I'm supposed to be a cocksucker. Like, if I could live my life fully without fear and with courage, that I should be a cocksucker. Kind of funny, because I feel like my desire to suck cock comes from a low self-esteem and feeling inferior, but the thought of sex with men and eating cum makes me feel warm, safe, secure inside. I really want to just embrace this instead of feeling bad about it. I want to embrace that I'm beta, that I'm a coward, that I can't stand up for myself in most situations. But one thing I can do, is be a good cocksucker. My self-worth can come from sucking dicks for men. Sucking cock can be the one thing that I'm brave at. Maybe my life ambition is simply to be used by men, to drain their balls, to get their semen ejaculated into my mouth. I can be courageous when I swallow their loads. I want one of my best life achievements to be that I ate the sperm of many different men. Each load is a piece of them, full of millions of their unique sperm cells, their pure energy and DNA, and I love that they get to feel so good when they squirt it out for me. Making men shoot their loads is enough of an accomplishment for me. I would feel happy doing this over and over again in life.

Cock is beautiful because it gives you cum. Balls are beautiful because they make sperm. The purpose of a man having a dick and balls is solely just to ejaculate semen. I have to remind myself that his cum is really something special, something so unique and powerful. I don't just want to lust for cock, I want to lust for semen.

How would life be, having that rush all the time? The rush of pleasuring a man, making a penis shoot in your mouth? Weekly? Daily? Can people live healthy lives by making their life purpose cock sucking?

[KDaddy23]

Coming to terms about being a cocksucker is... not all that easy to accept. I can remember all of the times when someone would call me a cocksucker - either in jest or out of anger - and I'd get seriously pissed off until one day, someone called me a cocksucker and before I could smite them with my ire I said to myself, "I don't know why you're getting pissed because you are a cocksucker..."

Shit. I am. Now, I can't honestly say that I'm a submissive cocksucker or that it, in any way, makes me feel "less than a man" or less of myself. I love doing it. It make me feel good to do it even though some guys just make it a pain in the ass to blow them. Is it my life's purpose to be a cocksucker? Perhaps when I consider that part of my purpose in life is to have sex and whether it's being dick deep in a woman... or sucking a guy's dick and coaxing him seed out of him because it's such a fun thing to do; quite the ego trip, too. "Nasty" in that way the the rules against this have been thrown away because they can - and should - be thrown away and, besides, not a lot of guys give a shit about the rules to begin with because being a cocksucker really isn't a bad thing to be.

Now, it's one thing to think of yourself as a cocksucker and/or that you'd be a good one... but you still have to actually do it and, sadly, some guys just can't or, just as sadly, some guys come up with every excuse under the sun for why they can't when, in actuality, it's not really all that difficult... unless you've made it difficult. Being in the closet isn't really an "excuse;" you put yourself in that closet and you can take yourself out of it... if you wanted to and, yes, if other factors would allow it, like being married and other such reasons for never opening the closet door so you can be the cocksucker you've dreamed about being. I know what it's like to suck dick and getting him to cum; the only thing better to me than sucking dick is eating pussy - and neither thing is without their own risks and problems. It's one thing to be a cocksucker... it's something entirely different to be fearless about being one. Not careless. Fearless. Knowing that you could get outed for it and face some shit and it might not be good but that fear being tempered by the fact that you did what you wanted and needed to do and at the end of any day, that's all that really matters. Knowing that homey might not be as healthy as he claims or thinks he is... and being smart enough to either cover the dick up to avoid that issue... or just saying no and keep it moving and looking for the guy you can say yes to so you can be the cocksucker you know yourself to be.

Because, bluntly, if you don't ever do it, can you really call yourself a cocksucker? What's it like to have that rush all of the time? It feels pretty good. I'm sure there are those who would see this as being... unhealthy as a "way of life" kind of thing although we acknowledge that having sex is quite healthy for both mind and body. Still, you're the one who gets to decide if it's healthy for you or not and I've been of a mind that if there's a time when I don't or didn't want to suck dick, something's not right with me and whatever that is probably isn't all that healthy for me. I'm a cocksucker. I will, if you let me, slake my lust upon you because, um, it's fun. It's sex. It'll be even better if you're a cocksucker, too, because I like guys who are more than I do guy who aren't. I'm old school in that this is a pleasure to be shared but, okay, if it make you happy to not reciprocate and your joy is to suck me until I cum, that can work... but don't get all bent when I tell you that I want to be the cocksucker I know I am and show you how good I am at it. Is it better to give than receive? I never thought so but that's me. It's better to give and receive because male cocksuckers are pretty awesome and dedicated to sucking that nut out of you because it doesn't make sense not to.

I'm a cocksucker... but I don't worship dick. I suck dick. I empty balls. Don't much care if a guy is masculine or feminine but what I do care about is whether or not they want their dick sucked and, yep, if they're gonna suck mine. A hard thing for me to accept when I had to accept it but it is the truth of what I am. The worst thing a guy can do is to give me a reason not to suck their dick. Otherwise, let's get naked and suck each other until we can't get it up anymore... because it's fun and it's what cocksuckers do.

[happymouthandtongue]

Just get on your knees and do it!

[Alex_rose]

KDaddy said it best. You can overthink it like I did. I was seeing this guy that was a top and felt somewhat submissive to him since I told him I wanted to bottom. He never made me feel like I was being dominated or beneath him. I liked sucking him off and getting fucked. So did he. It even was an amazing feeling getting him off, hearing him so ecstatic from cumming. It felt a little weird at first taking his load on my chest but I'm just glad I didn't swallow him. I don't have any interest in cum.

I stopped seeing him cause he lived far and for other reasons. But that doesn't change how I feel about sucking cock, it gets me hard and get more pleasure from getting a bj. Looking forward to meeting another guy.

[Bisexhusbpdx]

This is a conversation I’ve had in my head for a long time. Why am I driven to suck cock? I have a wife that I find sexy and our sex life is great. I get what I want, whenever I want. I’m in control and dominating every aspect of my life. Except when I desire to slide down on my knees and take a big hard cock in my mouth. I’ve been to a gloryhole five or six times. And When I make eye contact with a guy standing outside, I get shy. My heart races as I go into the room and drop down on my knees in front of the hole. And my body races with electricity when a cock slides through that hole. And then when my lips engulf the head... wow. And the cum. In my mouth, on my face... I love it. In that moment I am a cocksucker whose only goal is to service that cock and get that hot hot cum. But after, the recriminations start.

[ScottSwallows]

I love being on my knees and even though my blowjobs are voluntary and not forced,I love the feeling of being submissive.

[Tag200]

Thanks for sharing your feelings and thoughts. I don?t have much to offer in the way of advice other than to say is to increase / try sucking and see if what you think is what is.. I will follow along and see what others say. Kdaddy always knows what to say and how to think about things

[KDaddy23]

It's not about how you do it but why you do it... or want to. I don't know what it's like to be like 30 and "all of a sudden," have an overwhelming need to suck dick... because I've been doing it since I was 9. It was fun. Tasted good. Made me feel incredibly good to do something so bad. It took me quite a few years to reconcile being a cocksucker and understanding that it's sex albeit forbidden sex. Had to be something to it since I'd run into a lot of guys who were cocksuckers and those who wanted a guy to suck their dick. Dominant-type guys; submissive-type guys; guys who'd want to do it because they couldn't get laid with a woman; gay guys, bi guys, straight but curious guys - so many reasons why. All of them 100% valid because why you do it - or want to do it - is uniquely yours even though you'd find - as I did - that there are a lot of guys who suck cock for the same reasons you do.

You can be closeted and a voracious cocksucker; you can be married and be one although that's a bit trickier; you can be the cocksucker you want and need to be but in order to be the cocksucker you want to be, you gotta do it. Find a way to do it. Don't overthink it; don't overly complicate it and, most important, do not be afraid to do it. Two "rules:" When in doubt, (a) cover it up and suck it or (b) just say no and walk away. I've had more amazing experiences than not-so-amazing ones but those have never made me lose my desire for the sheer thrill of having a hard dick in my mouth and making it soft again and getting the other guy to give up his cum. How you want to make him do this is up to you but once you start doing it, you might discover that the reality doesn't quite match up with whatever fantasy you have about it... because there's another living, breathing, and very horny guy attached to the dick and he has a mind of his own and one that's subject to change at any moment.

Don't let this dismay or disillusion you, something that tends to happen with some first-timers because what they thought it would be like turned out to be different. You gotta take the good with the "bad" but, yeah, if you've come to terms about being a cocksucker in your head, all that's left is to gird your loins and make it your business and purpose to find a cock to suck because to not be able to do it can be very damned frustrating; it can spill over into your every day life and you're not going to feel right until you do. So many guys want to be cocksuckers but find reasons why they can't and all "bullshit" aside, there is always a way; you just gotta be bold enough to find it.

I don't know about it being a sole purpose in life but what I do know is that we are men; we need sex and sucking another man's cock (and him sucking yours, hopefully), is us taking care of that need for sex from just busting a nut to more deeper meanings we might have. To be a cocksucker, you have to suck a cock. Find out if the reality matches whatever you're thinking about it. Be sure that you understand why you feel the way you do... then find a way to get it done. Don't get all into who because as I have learned, any dick can be sucked as long as you're both agreeable and he's not your kind of an asshole; the "right guy" is any guy who wants to do what you want to do and if he's okay then it's okay. Might not be the "man of your dreams" or one who exactly meets whatever preferences you have but you're sucking dick and I'm thinking that this is all that really matters when you get right down to it and coming to terms about being a cocksucker.

It is my hope that anyone who hasn't sucked a dick will do so and the sooner, the better.

[nu2curious]

I don't get the humiliation thing at all , there's nothing humiliating about giving a guy oral pleasuring a cock is quite sexy so no one should feel humiliated that they're giving a friend such pleasure.

[KDaddy23]

I don't get the humiliation thing at all , there's nothing humiliating about giving a guy oral pleasuring a cock is quite sexy so no one should feel humiliated that they're giving a friend such pleasure.

It kinda harkens from a time where being a guy and being made to perform oral sex on another guy was a way to humiliate and emasculate him. Growing up, any guy who had sex with a guy meant that the guy "being the girl" wasn't a man at all. Consenting to it was "bad enough" but worst was having to suffer the utter humiliation of having your manhood taken from you by coercion or force. Jump ahead a few decades and even I ran into a few guys who wanted to be humiliated and made to suck cock. One guy said that it made him feel good to "not be manly all the damned time" and I admit that it took me a few to make sense of that but when I thought about all that "men are supposed to do" stuff that got pounded into my head, yeah, it kinda made sense that there are some guys who like feeling vulnerable and not so much in control of things and like taking a break from doing manly things... and doing the "very unmanly thing" of sucking cock or, gasp, being fucked.

These days, having sex with a guy is considered to be very manly and even very macho... but there are some guys who, I think, takes that break from all the man-stuff pressure and enjoys being humiliated when sucking cock. I get it (I think but I could be wrong); that always being in control of yourself can get tiring; always having to be in charge of everything and sometimes not really being able to do things in a way where they're not in control or in charge but having a guy ravaging their mouth and throat with their hardness and not showing any "mercy" can be quite... pleasurable and gives that sense of being vulnerable in a way that men aren't ever allowed to show. I don't think it's totally a case of a guy feeling that he's less of a man (although some guys could probably feel that way) for being made to suck that dick but, yeah, it's a way to embrace being vulnerable and "helpless" and not being in charge or control over what's happening. Once a guy has been "humiliated" and done with having his tonsils scrubbed and coated, he can go right back to being the large and in charge guy he's supposed to be.

At the end of any day, it's still about whatever floats your boat and, importantly, I think, whatever makes you feel good about yourself.

[tongueteaser]

I am not open about sucking and liking cock and cum. Everyone I know like workers, family and friends know me simply as a straight masculine guy that likes sex with a woman and nothing else. I will keep it that way as I dont and wont have a bunch of partners I suck. I like the idea of keeping it to myself after I sucked a guys cock and I feel so naughty from what I did. That naughty feeling makes me even more horny than ever. I will actually be at work the next day and thinking about the guys cock I sucked last night and how passionate I sucked his cock like a girl. Oh and I think about how I let him squirt his cum all inside my mouth and I wanted it so badly. Swirling his cum with my tongue and opening my mouth wide to show him what he put into me and I will be a good slut and swallow it. I swallow a little at a time to cherish it all while on my knees. I ask if I can lick his cock off. Its all about the cock and tight balls to me.

[delpark]

It took me a long time to come to terms with being a cocksucker. Although I immensely enjoyed sucking cock the first time I did it, was comfortable with myself doing it, I understood that most everyone I knew would frown on me for doing it. I allowed traditional social expectations to steer me towards hetero sex.

Curiosity would get me to look for cock from time to time. My quests for hetero relationships were hard for me, but I persisted. One night a girl friend was sucking my dick and it triggered something deep within me. I wanted to please men to the degree I was enjoying the blow job.

I responded to a few ads, visited Adult Book Stores, bought gay porn and masturbated to gay fantasies.

One evening I had agreed to a married couple's invitation for the wife to experience two guys. During the early stages of the three of us in bed my hand inadvertently grabbed his cock and I loved the sensation, the silky soft skin of the hard as a rock cock. It ruined my night, we had not discussed any male to male interaction. The night was for the wife's pleasure.. I told them I uncomfortable, but not the real reason as to why. His cock was so much more interesting to me than anything the wife had to offer.

The curiosity had become an urge, then over time it has become a need and preference.

I was on my knees one day working on a reward of cum to ingest when a feeling, a knowing, came over me that is my role in sex. I allowed the inner peace envelope me accept what had taken years for me to understand.

[jem_is_bi]

I avoided being an active cocksucker for most of my adult life.
Being an active cocksucker would have impeded or prevented me from succeeding in career activities.
After achieving those goals, becoming an active cocksucker had to happen.
Now, I am a happy active cocksucker. I love sucking cock.
Also, I love having my cock sucked..

[happymouthandtongue]

It used bother me to hear other people calling someone a dirty cocksucker, like it was something disgusting. I’ve sucked cocks all my life, from 8 or 9 to now, I’m 73. That’s a lot of cocks and a lot of cum. Since I’m a married cocksucker, my wife has never known. I still suck z4 or 5 cocks a week, I crave it. I’m not shy about it, I’m fairly aggressive in approaching guys that look like they are looking to be sucked. I never wanted to be discovered as a cocksucker in school or at work.

[SilkyHoseLover]

I was first called a cocksucker in early 1973, by an enraged coworker who objected that I changed the radio station in our work area from country western to something a little less strident. After his initial demonstration of anger, I muttered 'What an asshole...' under my breath. Apparently, it was loud enough that he heard it, provoking the loud appellation in response. It was supposed to be an insult, but I didn't take it any more seriously than any other adjective/noun combination that he may have come up with it its place.

Now the irony: I considered myself to be totally straight at the time, and had never had any thoughts of doing such a thing. I was a growing kinkster, but most of my fantasies involved women and femininity. Cocks just weren't on my radar.

It would be 40+ years before his 'prediction' would become reality, but once I tried it -- I liked it! So these days, call me a cocksucker if you like, but do it with a wry smile or a twinkle in your eye. We'll both get the joke, and maybe get together for a little fun!

[Cum1st]

My first time I did it because I wanted to. Alcohol made it easier, and I regretted becoming a queer after. I don't know if bi was a thing back then. I certainly didn't know there was an in between, and if I did it wouldn't have mattered. It took time and possibly that paperback porn novel I jerked off to so many times after for me to crave the the experience enough to overpower my fear. And after all once you've sucked one cock you have become a cock sucker.

The book was written when criminals on the run was a popular theme. When the characters came across an effeminate 'homo' I was at least as turned on as with all of the pussy they got, maybe more.

Years later on a chilly rainy night I went into my first ABS for some porn. It was very dark inside. The clerk and I were the only ones in the store - rather uncomfortable. Looking around I spied a curtain with a sign over it - 'Theater'. It wasn't as I envisioned it. I picked a booth and got at it. After a while the clerk appeared in the opening right next to where I was seated. He gestured to his cock sticking straight out of his fly, and asked, "Wanna sip?" I turned and got right on it. Even when he mentioned doing something for me, I kept going. After I swallowed his cum he scurried back to work. My first ABS experience was incredible! This was the beginning of a time when cock was so easy to find, and I had plenty.

Before I left NJ I had been outed behind my back, but it didn't seem to matter much. Here in PA I'd rather keep it under my hat.

I can understand the submissive side of sucking a cock, but for me it's about sex whether reciprocal or not. When women have enjoyed being tied up or otherwise dominated during sex my enjoyment came from fucking someone who was ON FIRE.

[KDaddy23]

I am not open about sucking and liking cock and cum. Everyone I know like workers, family and friends know me simply as a straight masculine guy that likes sex with a woman and nothing else. I will keep it that way as I dont and wont have a bunch of partners I suck. I like the idea of keeping it to myself...

Even if no one else knows you're a cock sucker, you know it. Yep, it can be your "dirty little secret" that you keep from everyone else but you know and that's to me the biggest part of coming to terms about it and it's not always that easy to do for some guys... because they tend to be very worried about other people finding out that they're a cock sucker. Some guys have that "guilt" thing going on and some are quite ashamed to have sucked dick... and liked the fuck out of it. These two things alone can make it hard for a guy to come to terms with being a cocksucker. I think that "coming to terms" isn't about what you do with a dick but the fact that you're doing something with a dick... and in a world that's still very iffy about men blowing each other.

You've come to terms with it, I think, if/when someone calls you a cocksucker - out of anger or in jest - and you put on an act like you're unhappy about but on the inside, you're not unhappy about it at all because you know that you are a cock sucker and you sure as hell love doing it. Just my extra two cents worth about this...

[kneelsoften]

That is so sweet!I know how much you joy you get from

[void()]

Cannot say I've ever faced any real moral, emotional, spiritual quagmire over sucking cock. I have/can/probably will enjoy that as an aspect of human sexuality. Don't see a need for shame over a natural biological process. So, ultimately I've never needed to come to terms with being a cock sucker.

A friend and coworker knew/knows I'm bisexual. He thought it would be a little fun to drop that hint to another coworker who is purely straight but wouldn't mind a good blowjob. The straight coworker pressed me on it.

"So you suck cock?"

My reply without missing a beat, "Oh hon, you jealous? Need blown?"

This coworker's jaw dropped and stood dumbfounded and speechless. He never once tried to pick on, or start anything with me again. The other coworker just burst out laughing. He told me later he was sorry, he was just having a bit of fun. Told him it was a bit fun and we both had a laugh.

I was not sorry for deflating a jerk's ego and attempt at degrading someone to prop themselves up. As I stated, I've no feeling of shame over it. Why then ought I cater, or pander to someone else's shame? Nope. Don't need, or want to so I don't.

Feel sad if you find yourself feeling you have to cater to others like that. Still, horses can only be led to water.

Ultimately, respect yourself & don't give a rat's ass about the opinion others have about you. They're likely just as afraid of the opinion you have of them. If you respect yourself you can respect others. That doesn't mean though you are defined by them. That's left to you, alone.

ETA: Yet another question/topic I would hazard bet comes back around in 3-6 months. Simple test to see.

Does it seem to create or evoke controversy, or posit with the same? Yes, it'll be brought back around. The stereotype of bisexuals is "you're bisexual so you're wilting & full of drama."

No, thanks. I'm all good. I also do not agree with standard literary plot of forbidden love. That plot says sure two gay lovers might express their love but ultimately there's tragic ends for it.

Again, not for me. I'm fine knowing lovers of any kind can express their love & still find happy endings. But the site will keep rehashing this negative dung. Why? Well, advertisers got no foothold otherwise.

It's a classical Hegelian Dialectic (https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/hegel-dialectics/) and it's used to keep classes apart, create income, conquer. They keep feeding out all these dramatic problems on the site and then advertising distractions as solutions already packaged up with nice little bows. Do you really have these problems? Maybe, but I kind of doubt it.

And as far as keeping people apart, you're on a niche site expressly for bisexual people. Are you not as much a human person as say Mr. Smith next door who is straight, believes in God and country? So why be apart? Ah, because you're told to be, huh?

Being anything but the normal & straight is inferior? Is it really? I thought it was only different & the world is full of the different. That's how it keeps going. Nature loves the different and in fact nearly demands it. So yes, respect yourself. You're no less than any other. You're also no more than any other so just in case you decided on your own ego trip, let me trip you there. :)

People are people. We're all equally here and all equal.

But I digress as the site will likely churn it all out again. Got to keep advertising revenue coming in.

[Godownonit]

There is no secret to accepting who and what you are. That process is part of life - learning to be comfortable in your own skin. I sucked off my brother when I was 12...and we have never spoken of it since. I felt bad about it for years and did not accept the fact that I was Bi. I was married for 9 years, which ended...but not because of my orientation. I suppressed my cock obsession during that time and just did hetero sex. Finally, the urge to suck cock just boiled over, several years ago. So, I hooked up with a friend of a friend, so to speak...who happens to be gay. Several months went by, during which I beat myself up about it brutally. Finally, I couldn't stand it and did the same again. After 3 or 4 times like this, I began to accept that I like cock - LOVE cock, actually. Now, I can't get enough. As I think I've said here before, I would suck 10 a day, if I could. Actually, my record now stands at 14 - at a party I attended several months ago. I REALLY like sucking cock - and gobbling up the creamy reward. Nowadays, I mostly just suck cock. I have little interest in anything else sexual. It really helps that there is a university here...and a couple of others nearby. I like young cock, you see. My gay and bi friends keep me well- supplied and host parties pretty regularly, to which I am always invited.

The point of the story is, that after all this time and all of the things I've been through...I have just accepted that I am a COCKSUCKER. Proud of it, in fact. I can keep up with the best of them - including deep throating an 8 incher (which I just sucked the other night). Life is about dealing with it - it's not what happens, it's how you deal with that matters. I deal with life by sucking lots of dongs and eating lots of cum.

My advice to anyone on the fence, so to speak...is to get out there and get on your knees. Suck as many poles as you can find (but safely). Time will tell for you, just as it has for me. Worst case...you can look back and remember all the fun, but decide that it's not for you. Best case - lots and lots of COCK !!!

[KDaddy23]

"My reply without missing a beat, "Oh hon, you jealous? Need blown?"

@void: I've said similar things to guys looking to give me shit because I suck dick... and it is very damned effective in putting them in their place. I will say that there have been a few times I've said something like that... and the guy wanted to be blown (but didn't mention it while he was getting clowned in front of witnesses, of course).

[cuttin2dachase]

I never felt one iota of guilt or shame after I discovered my bisexual side. I find men sexy and desirable. I was str8 for 32 years b4 my ex-hotwife coaxed me to have sex with our mfm 3way partners. She loved watching me with men as much as I loved watching her with men. It seemed so natural and hot and kinky and thrilling to me. Men REALLY turned me on from that day until today. My religious/moral beliefs are that same gender sex is not sinful or anything to be ashamed of.

[phalluster]

This is a great thread with lots of thoughtful commentary about being a cocksucker. What I think is being minimized is the difficulty of being the cocksucker you want to be when married (happily I might add). How do you come to terms with knowing that you WANT to be a cocksucker, but not as much as you want to keep the happiness that exists in the rest of your life?

[KDaddy23]

This is a great thread with lots of thoughtful commentary about being a cocksucker. What I think is being minimized is the difficulty of being the cocksucker you want to be when married (happily I might add). How do you come to terms with knowing that you WANT to be a cocksucker, but not as much as you want to keep the happiness that exists in the rest of your life?

Most married guys get so frustrated knowing that they want to be a cocksucker but are rightfully worried about things at home not getting messed up behind it. Still, many married men who want to cocksuckers invariably find a way to do it; they do reason that getting out there to take care of that great urge to suck cock is worth the potential trouble they could get in at home. The issue isn't exactly all that minimized because it's a major problem for a lot of married guys here and everywhere else; there's just no way for such men to be able to do their thing without the risk of discovery and that way being foolproof... other than to ask for permission; that's something that can get very involved and calls for the cocksucker-to-be to out himself and, well, that's probably why so many married men go out and suck dick without it because, as they say, it's better to beg forgiveness (and even if they're never forgiven).

Why take the risk? That urge to suck cock is pretty damned powerful and, as such, hard for a lot of guys to ignore and so much that one guy who very much want to suck cock told me that not being able to was making him insane. I've thought that guys will take this risk because that urge can turn on their "self-preservation" mode or, almost literally, if they don't do it, they just might wind up severely depressed and that will wind up affecting every other aspect of his life as well as the impact on his family. Most guys I know/knew of chose to stay the course and keep dicks out of their mouths and for the sake of peace and harmony at home... and some guys didn't. Still, it's not difficult to come to terms with wanting to be a cocksucker since you know that you want to do it and that, if given the opportunity and with minimal risk, you will suck a cock. Wanting to is easy. Going about doing it isn't when you're married or in a relationship and this is a closely-held secret that you probably wouldn't want your partner finding out about.

[Tag200]

Most married guys get so frustrated knowing that they want to be a cocksucker but are rightfully worried about things at home not getting messed up behind it. Still, many married men who want to cocksuckers invariably find a way to do it; they do reason that getting out there to take care of that great urge to suck cock is worth the potential trouble they could get in at home. The issue isn't exactly all that minimized because it's a major problem for a lot of married guys here and everywhere else; there's just no way for such men to be able to do their thing without the risk of discovery and that way being foolproof... other than to ask for permission; that's something that can get very involved and calls for the cocksucker-to-be to out himself and, well, that's probably why so many married men go out and suck dick without it because, as they say, it's better to beg forgiveness (and even if they're never forgiven).

Why take the risk? That urge to suck cock is pretty damned powerful and, as such, hard for a lot of guys to ignore and so much that one guy who very much want to suck cock told me that not being able to was making him insane. I've thought that guys will take this risk because that urge can turn on their "self-preservation" mode or, almost literally, if they don't do it, they just might wind up severely depressed and that will wind up affecting every other aspect of his life as well as the impact on his family. Most guys I know/knew of chose to stay the course and keep dicks out of their mouths and for the sake of peace and harmony at home... and some guys didn't. Still, it's not difficult to come to terms with wanting to be a cocksucker since you know that you want to do it and that, if given the opportunity and with minimal risk, you will suck a cock. Wanting to is easy. Going about doing it isn't when you're married or in a relationship and this is a closely-held secret that you probably wouldn't want your partner finding out about.

very well put , I will add if you are going to “cheat” with men is probably easier and safer bet .. but all comes with a risk of course

[atxbi]

I guess I’m lucky because I get the best of both worlds. My wife doesn’t care to know if I’m out sucking cock. She knows I have done it because I have told her. Back in the day, we even shared a few together.

[bnicks122016]

I,don’t advertise it, but I’m comfortable being a cocksucker. I comfortable in my own skin and my masculinity. The fact in enjoy sucking cock doesn’t take away from that. It’s just another part of sex I really enjoy

[GalaxyMan]

I never felt one iota of guilt or shame after I discovered my bisexual side.

I couldn't agree more. I was in my early 50s the first time I tried it, at my wife's urging when we were exploring swinging, figuring that at our age that we had nothing to lose and were far past any shame about exploring. I never had any urge or desire to try it, but once I had decided that I would try it, I felt nothing but curiosity and excitement. I figured that if I didn't like it, no harm, no foul, that I had at least tried it in the process of exploring my/our sexual horizons. What I wasn't prepared for was how much I liked it, right away, though the fact that it tasted like my wife's pussy -- he had been fucking her -- might have had something to do with it. I was determined and did my best, very quickly being treated to an explosion of cum in my mouth. I had to resist the urge to gag or spit it out, having decided prior to the event that if I was going to do it, that I was going to do it completely. I was pretty surprised that it wasn't bad at all. My cock was rock-hard and I concentrated on sucking him until he stopped cumming, swallowing all of it, the cloying, sticky saltiness of it thickly coating my mouth and tongue. After that first time, I never hesitated when the opportunity would present itself. I've never felt even a little bit of an attraction to any man, but I just love the feeling of a cock in my mouth spewing cum. My only regret was that I hadn't tried it 20-30 years sooner.

[Neonaught]

I was 16 when I touched and sucked the beautiful uncut cock of my best friend. He smelled, felt and tasted so good and I loved his cum. I didn't advertise since it was the late 70's but I never felt a moment of moral or emotional turmoil.

[Blondeblowjob7]

I actually never thought about sucking cock until the day I gave my first blowjob. My first feeder saw traits in me, some of which were rather unusual, that led him to believe that I was a male cocksucker who just hadn?t discovered that I was a male cocksucker yet. My first feeder strongly encouraged me to accept the fact that I was a male cocksucker. He said that the strong majority of men were born only to have their cock sucked, but that there?s a small percentage of men who were truly born to suck cock. He said it was very obvious that I had ?cocksucker? written all over my face, and that it was obvious that I truly loved sucking dick. Again, my first feeder strongly and repeatedly encouraged me to accept the fact that I was a male cocksucker. He told me that for the rest of my life I would not be happy with my sex life unless I was getting my mouth fucked by another man?s penis on a regular basis. Well he was exactly right about me! I initially had a difficult time coming to terms with being a male cocksucker. However, over time I began to realize that my first feeder was exactly right about me. I felt much happier with my sex life in times when I was sucking cock on a regular basis. Now I?m very comfortable with being a male cocksucker. Giving head to a big cut cock is honestly my favorite type of sex. Being a cocksucker is my true sexuality. I absolutely love being a cocksucker!

[Road Warrior]

I came to grips with the acknowledgement that I was a cocksucker through a bit of a roundabout route.

I discovered my interest in men in my early 30?s. I really wish I had done so long before that, but I just wasn?t interested.


When I was in college working part time at a bank, I befriended a manager who was older than me by ten years, and married. We often went out drinking after work nor Friday nights, and he tried to get into my pants repeatedly. He was obviously active with men at the time. I resisted because I wasn?t interested at the time. I did have a drunken threesome with him and his wife my senior year. During that encounter, she tried to force me to suck his cock so she could watch. She thought we were already an item at that point.


Crazy me I resisted. I wouldn?t hesitate at all now.


He eventually separated from his wife.


My girlfriend throughout most of my college years also thought we were an item, but didn?t seem phased about it at all when she mentioned it one night. A very open minded women for back then, I must say.


So, ten years later, I finally succumbed to me friends advances. I had moved away, and returned to the area. I moved into an apartment, and had very little furniture. He was coming over one Friday night, and dinner, wine, and pot were on the menu. Sex between us was also on the menu, but I wasn?t ready to admit that yet.


He was going to spend the night, so we would be sleeping together since there were no other accommodations. I knew from all our explicit conversations, that he had a strong fetish for men wearing white Calvin Klein briefs.


When we eventually got undressed, and crawled int bed, I was wearing white Calvin Klein briefs. I hadn?t planned to have sex with him that night, but on a subconscious level, I guess I was ready, and wanted it.


In no time at all, he slipped off my briefs, and proceeded to start sucking my cock. Wow, he was good. I was excited, nervous, aroused, but offered no resistance. I ended up being his ?pillow princess? that night, and he sucked me off in the middle of the night, and first thing in the morning before he left as well. Three times he sucked me off from that sleepover.


He left, and we didn?t discuss what had happened.


I was a little uncomfortable about what had happened, so I called a woman I was seeing casually, took her out to dinner, then back to my apartment, and fucked her that night, and Sunday morning. So, I was good with my bisexuality at that point.


Then I made plans for another evening with him, expressly for the purpose of me reciprocating. It was on a week night so I wouldn?t necessarily have a female date option after.


I literally could not wait to get together with him again. I wanted to suck his cock. That was all I could think about in the days leading up to his return.


Same menu, same wardrobe, but this time I was the aggressor. This time I slipped off his white Calvin Klein briefs, and proceeded to suck his cock to climax.

Was, did I thoroughly enjoy sucking his cock. It was so enjoyable, addictive, satisfying, arousing, relaxing etc.

After, then he decides to ?talk? to me while we are naked in bed. Tells me I?m not straight, etc. I had no problem at all with that. I am bisexual, I'm a cocksucker, life is good.

Realizing I was bisexual was just so liberating for me at the time. I felt like I had lost my virginity a second time, and could have very enjoyable sexual encounters with a man or women.

So, we finally became an item for a while, sexually. I frequented gay bars and parties with him. We slept together as often as we could manage it. I had a boyfriend and I was dating my wife. When I got married, I
had no intention of giving up my relationship with him.

I loved him, and loved sucking his cock. I am so happy he helped me discover what a pleasure sex with a man is, and how enjoyable cocksucking is.

__PRESENT

[Happy Tongue]

Very nice story! Glad you feel so good about it and found your way...

[Roxxi]

I love sucking cock! I would literally do it all day and night if I could! I enjoy pleasuring men, knowing how good I am making them feel. The warm, creamy fresh load of cum straight from the pipe is a tremendous reward! For me, it is impossible to see a guys cock and not want to suck it. I used to feel guilty or ashamed about it, but many of the men that I've pleasured have made me feel more comfortable about it. Most return again at some point and want more, so I give it to them...or should I say, they give it to me!

[Jozyxt]

Realizing I was bisexual was just so liberating for me at the time.

It has been for me too.

While I still have very mixed feelings about cocksucking and MM sex, the desire to make a man cum in my mouth is very strong and simply cannot be ignored. I really would like to experience having a boyfriend with whom I could explore MM sex. And one where we could support each other as we work through the emotions And strange as it is for me to say it, maybe even fall in love.

[Road Warrior]

It has been for me too.

While I still have very mixed feelings about cocksucking and MM sex, the desire to make a man cum in my mouth is very strong and simply cannot be ignored. I really would like to experience having a boyfriend with whom I could explore MM sex. And one where we could support each other as we work through the emotions And strange as it is for me to say it, maybe even fall in love.

I've had a few "boyfriends" in my time, where yes, I actually did fall in love. They were in conjunction with my "straight" life however, so I have never had an "exclusive" relationship with a man, which I do regret. I have wondered if I could have been totally open with friends and family if I had a an ongoing relationship with a man and admit my bisexuality.....

For me, the sex is more intense and enjoyable when there are strong emotions attached to it. I have thoroughly loved sucking my various "boyfriends" off, then snuggling with them after. I do enjoy being submissive, sucking cock, then feeling warmth and affection after........__PRESENT

[Jozyxt]

For me, the sex is more intense and enjoyable when there are strong emotions attached to it. I have thoroughly loved sucking my various "boyfriends" off, then snuggling with them after.

Strong emotions are the key to great sex for me. The problem is that afterwards, I have a hard time with the snuggling thing. I just rever to unemotional guy mode and pretend it never happened. That is the mixed feeling and what I'd like to have a friend to help me overcome. My only regular so far is a work from home guy whose wife also works from home, so our trysts are very time limited, blow and go kind of things. No time to cuddle and talk before cumming and he leaves instantly.

When i visit self described cocksuckers, it is blow and go for me. But many men like that so they can be alone to savor the experience.

[RisingBi]

It took me a very long time to come to terms with being a cocksucker. And I believe a lot of that struggle was unconscious, with some internalized homophobia at play. For me, it seems most of all my gay desires for decades arose whenever I was rejected by a woman. It first manifested when my first girlfriend broke up with me at 30 after a three-year relationship, shattering my heart (we had been talking marriage). It seemed the rejections before that going all the way back to grade school weren't strong enough, but that break up was. After that break up, I couldn't stop thinking about sucking a cock, and fantasizing about and watching porn involving all kinds of different gay sex.

The first few times sucking a cock felt really surreal, and I didn't know what to feel. As I continued dating women and being rejected after mostly the first, sometimes second, and a couple of times third date, without even any kissing, gay desires would explode in me, leading to lots of masturbation to gay porn, and eventually driving me out to suck anonymous cock in different gay sex venues. But the big problem was that every time I was naked in front of a real guy, all my gay desires for sucking and fucking disappeared. I still sucked his cock out of politeness, and even feigned lots of desire and passion for his cock. And I also never felt anything anal for a real guy in person. But back at home all the gay desires came back for sucking and fucking, until they drove me out again to suck cock, only to be disappointed in my own desires yet again. But there were half a dozen exceptions, where I kept all my powerful gay oral desires for the guy I was sucking (but I still never had any anal feelings, except at home in my fantasies). But those handful of occasions when I enjoyed cocksucking were rare, like 6 out of more than 200 cocks that I had sucked in those first 21 years.

I didn't know what to make of it. There was some kind of weird cognitive dissonance happening, with lots of gay desires at home, but rarely in person. But at the end of those 21 years of only cocksucking, 8 years ago in 2013, I had great lust for this guy's ass in a bathhouse in Berlin, far away from my home in Canada. In fact, I'm wondering if that great distance is what finally allowed my unconscious to free my gay desires for another man in person, because I went absolutely crazy with uncontrolled desire for this man's ass, tonguefucking his beautiful asshole for more than an hour before finally giving in to his screaming pleas to fuck him, which I did. I can't tell you how much I enjoyed rimming and fucking this man. This was the moment when I finally accepted my bisexuality, and even loved it and was proud of it. I was finally in touch with the gay side of myself, and finally came to terms with me sucking cocks, and even rimming and fucking guys, and loving it.

After that I stopped all anonymous gay sex and I've just been getting together with guys in each other's homes. I have loved sucking guys' cocks in every single one of these visits since my gay awakening. And I have very much loved rimming guys' incredible assholes, and I've almost fucked again a number of times. But then I fell in love with a woman in 2016, and had my second girlfriend in my life, and stopped all the gay hookups. But since breaking up with her just before the pandemic hit, I'm raring to go with exploring my even stronger gay side, in even a stronger way than ever before. That very rocky and challenging relationship left me with no desire to be with a woman again, not for now. I just want to suck, rim, and fuck guys, and be sucked, rimmed, and fucked by them.

Now, that's been my own personal journey. Everyone is different. And everyone feels differently, which I'm totally okay with. As discussed in this thread, some people enjoy giving up their masculine, controlling state for a while and just submit to another strong man, and even be humiliated by him, and be the perfect cocksucker. And that's totally fine, and I can happily give that experience to them. Others, like myself, just feel everything about gay sex to be the ultimate in masculinity. Yes, so far I've only topped a guy in rimming and fucking, though I want to lose my bottom virginity very soon. So I'm not completely sure about the sole masculinity aspect, but that's what I currently feel. At this point anyway, I just feel that there can't be anything more manly than having sex with another man--sucking or fucking.

Unlike KDaddy, I'm also a big cock worshiper. I think the majority of bi and gay guys are the same. The phallos is the epitome of masculinity, and we bow to its beauty and magnificence. The erect penis is the embodiment of power, and we worship that, and want to consume that, make it part of us. Unlike the majority of women, bi and gay cocksuckers worship the cock as the most beautiful thing in the universe. I certainly do. Understanding this relationship I have to the phallos (erect cock) and its archetype has helped me come to terms with my love of cocksucking, and my desire to get it deep inside of me, breeding my bowels.

But I don't consider myself a "cocksucker": I don't identify with that term. Even though I worship the cock as an independent, godlike entity, ever since getting in deeper touch with the gay part of myself, the fact that the cock is attached to the rest of a guy is part of its allure. I love everything about the idea of homosexuality, even though I have not allowed myself to experience all facets of it yet. I think two men making love with each other, or two women making love with each other, is a beautiful thing in this universe. It's a big thing for me. But I'm not a cocksucker; I'm a bi man who loves sucking a guy's cock, and having every other kind of sex with him, to really connect with another man, to feel intimacy with masculinity (even if he's expressing femininity because of his own predilections, he is still very much another man to me, and having sex with him is what it's all about for me). I also hate when other guys call a guy's asshole a "pussy". To me, a guy's asshole is one of the greatest things in the universe: it's a male asshole, something I love to devour and make love to. But each to his own.

I'm not totally there yet with the coming to terms process, though. I almost never have any desire for a guy on the street in every day life, though that's gradually changing as I accept more and more of the gay part of myself. And I still haven't had any romantic feelings for another guy, though I'm not against that idea for myself. I fantasize about falling in love with a guy, and even having a boyfriend or husband. Even one time within those last 8 years, before meeting my ex-girlfriend, I was actually kind of dating this one guy, going out on dinner dates at restaurants, or with him cooking for me, having mind-blowing sex, and even cuddling on the sofa in front of a television with him. We had so many phenomenal conversations, and he was a super nice guy, and I actually liked him a lot, as a friend, with benefits. But he had recently come out to his wife and family as gay, and divorced his wife, and was looking for gay love. Even though I desperately wished that I had romantic feelings for him, I didn't; so we drifted apart.

Because I know I've had issues with internalized homophobia and suppression of the gay part of myself in the past, preventing me from desiring cocksucking in person, outside of my fantasies, until I had that profound experience of intimacy with another man when I finally had intercourse, I suspect it may be continuing to happen in preventing my gay feelings to arise and be present in the apparent straight world I'm part of (out on the street, at work, around family, friends, and acquaintances, etc.), let alone allowing romantic feelings for a man to arise. Perhaps if this pandemic can stop, so that many of these local guys unable to go through with hooking up with me will do so, and I get some really good continuing sexual experiences with men, I will begin to allow more and more of the gay part of me to stop being suppressed. So, no, I don't believe I am yet fully in terms with my bisexuality.

[LowkeyBreeze318]

Although I haven?t done it in a very long time, the thought of me sucking cock still not only sticks with me but attracts me, I?ve learned to have fun with the idea whether I eventually do it again or not.

[CdnBadBoy]

Amen brother. Self acceptance of the need and desire to suck cock is so important, even if you keep it closeted. I'm still closeted, so have to be very discrete, but love exchanging blowjobs with other cocksuckers, especially closeted guys, because we understand each other. The confusion evaporated once I accepted this wasn't just a thing I had to try or a phase. I am a cocksucker, and will continue to suck when I have the chance, because I enjoy it. Here's to much cocksucking fun for all in 2024! :bigrin:


Coming to terms about being a cocksucker is... not all that easy to accept. I can remember all of the times when someone would call me a cocksucker - either in jest or out of anger - and I'd get seriously pissed off until one day, someone called me a cocksucker and before I could smite them with my ire I said to myself, "I don't know why you're getting pissed because you are a cocksucker..."

Shit. I am. Now, I can't honestly say that I'm a submissive cocksucker or that it, in any way, makes me feel "less than a man" or less of myself. I love doing it. It make me feel good to do it even though some guys just make it a pain in the ass to blow them. Is it my life's purpose to be a cocksucker? Perhaps when I consider that part of my purpose in life is to have sex and whether it's being dick deep in a woman... or sucking a guy's dick and coaxing him seed out of him because it's such a fun thing to do; quite the ego trip, too. "Nasty" in that way the the rules against this have been thrown away because they can - and should - be thrown away and, besides, not a lot of guys give a shit about the rules to begin with because being a cocksucker really isn't a bad thing to be.

Now, it's one thing to think of yourself as a cocksucker and/or that you'd be a good one... but you still have to actually do it and, sadly, some guys just can't or, just as sadly, some guys come up with every excuse under the sun for why they can't when, in actuality, it's not really all that difficult... unless you've made it difficult. Being in the closet isn't really an "excuse;" you put yourself in that closet and you can take yourself out of it... if you wanted to and, yes, if other factors would allow it, like being married and other such reasons for never opening the closet door so you can be the cocksucker you've dreamed about being. I know what it's like to suck dick and getting him to cum; the only thing better to me than sucking dick is eating pussy - and neither thing is without their own risks and problems. It's one thing to be a cocksucker... it's something entirely different to be fearless about being one. Not careless. Fearless. Knowing that you could get outed for it and face some shit and it might not be good but that fear being tempered by the fact that you did what you wanted and needed to do and at the end of any day, that's all that really matters. Knowing that homey might not be as healthy as he claims or thinks he is... and being smart enough to either cover the dick up to avoid that issue... or just saying no and keep it moving and looking for the guy you can say yes to so you can be the cocksucker you know yourself to be.

Because, bluntly, if you don't ever do it, can you really call yourself a cocksucker? What's it like to have that rush all of the time? It feels pretty good. I'm sure there are those who would see this as being... unhealthy as a "way of life" kind of thing although we acknowledge that having sex is quite healthy for both mind and body. Still, you're the one who gets to decide if it's healthy for you or not and I've been of a mind that if there's a time when I don't or didn't want to suck dick, something's not right with me and whatever that is probably isn't all that healthy for me. I'm a cocksucker. I will, if you let me, slake my lust upon you because, um, it's fun. It's sex. It'll be even better if you're a cocksucker, too, because I like guys who are more than I do guy who aren't. I'm old school in that this is a pleasure to be shared but, okay, if it make you happy to not reciprocate and your joy is to suck me until I cum, that can work... but don't get all bent when I tell you that I want to be the cocksucker I know I am and show you how good I am at it. Is it better to give than receive? I never thought so but that's me. It's better to give and receive because male cocksuckers are pretty awesome and dedicated to sucking that nut out of you because it doesn't make sense not to.

I'm a cocksucker... but I don't worship dick. I suck dick. I empty balls. Don't much care if a guy is masculine or feminine but what I do care about is whether or not they want their dick sucked and, yep, if they're gonna suck mine. A hard thing for me to accept when I had to accept it but it is the truth of what I am. The worst thing a guy can do is to give me a reason not to suck their dick. Otherwise, let's get naked and suck each other until we can't get it up anymore... because it's fun and it's what cocksuckers do.

[elian2]

I have mixed feelings about it. If the guy's not a jerk I'm pretty happy sucking.. Doesn't necessarily mean you are being submissive either, unless you really want to be. There is nothing wrong with wanting to share pleasure ..

[Tommi6969]

Finally coming out to myself after repressing my desire since teen years-
im gay and cd and will always crave cock
i love it

[julyguybill]

Years back I in need of relief so i went to a place where I could receive a blow job. I was married but fighting
,with wife all the time Anyway i afterwards felt shame. I had been brought up that sex with men was wrong and bad.
After a few weeks i did it again .I went over and over always feeling bad afterwards but needing to cum i finally one afternoon
Sucked myfirst. cock and loved it. Now a new me had evolved. I was a cock sucker. I sucked guys often swallowed most times.
Next i began to want and suck multiple guys each time and love it. .i was supposed to be ashamed of these actions but no longer
was. I needed it wanted itso have been giving and receiving. many years.I am in the closet. I will want and suck guys when I can .. I am p happy to be a cock sucker .

[jjourneyman]

People tend to overthink sex. It's not complicated. We all have an innate desire to be pleased and to please. The most fascinating thing I've learned is that when you have another man's cock in your mouth, you are in control. Yes... you desire the pleasure of being given the opportunity suck his cock, but you also have a responsibility to give pleasure.

The moment he puts his penis in your mouth, there is trust. He is literally trusting you with his life, and you are trusting that he will reward you with a mouth full of cum. It's a lesson that we all learn.

[elian2]

People tend to overthink sex. It's not complicated. We all have an innate desire to be pleased and to please. The most fascinating thing I've learned is that when you have another man's cock in your mouth, you are in control. Yes... you desire the pleasure of being given the opportunity suck his cock, but you also have a responsibility to give pleasure.

The moment he puts his penis in your mouth, there is trust. He is literally trusting you with his life, and you are trusting that he will reward you with a mouth full of cum. It's a lesson that we all learn.
Darn I wish there was a like button on here. Exactly this.

[dicktrobing]

For me its not complicated, I enjoy sex with people sucking cock is just part of the sex act, and is something I enjoy doing; so there was not cuming to terms with it for me

[stephmtl]

I am constantly thinking about this. I am pretty closeted but am to indulge from time to time. I really enjoy cock sucking most but it is something I am "dealing" with because I must be closeted. I m not homophobic or bi-phobic but I realize I'm colouring outside the lines by indulging in this. Cheating. Doesn't feel good. But it also - often - keeps me less stress3d as a husband and father. A surprise to me. But it seems to be balancing out. This is not what I was thinking the life balance would be for me but there it is. I cant NOT do it. I am so very turned on by the feeling of submitting to having a penis in my mouth. It feels like a submission to let this guy pump in your mouth. very hot.

[Tag200]

I am constantly thinking about this. I am pretty closeted but am to indulge from time to time. I really enjoy cock sucking most but it is something I am "dealing" with because I must be closeted. I m not homophobic or bi-phobic but I realize I'm colouring outside the lines by indulging in this. Cheating. Doesn't feel good. But it also - often - keeps me less stress3d as a husband and father. A surprise to me. But it seems to be balancing out. This is not what I was thinking the life balance would be for me but there it is. I cant NOT do it. I am so very turned on by the feeling of submitting to having a penis in my mouth. It feels like a submission to let this guy pump in your mouth. very hot.

I hope that cock sucking helps me with balance and my stress . I think about it a lot these days and have some plans to try sucking again this month

[Cuck2023]

Took me a long time to admit to myself that I’m a cocksucker. Life was much easier once I did. Admitting it to myself also helped with the urge to suck, at least to some degree. I’m not out about it other than to wife and men I have been with but also wouldn’t try to hide it I was found out. Having a hard cock in my mouth and his hand on the back of my head feels like a natural place for me to be.

[camelblue]

I think every guy has a masculine and feminine side of him. My feminine side used to bother me, the feeling of being weak, submissive, not assertive. It can be a source of frustration and self-hate and make you feel depressed if you treat it as a negative thing. When I realized I was a cocksucker, it gave me an outlet for these negative or "feminine" qualities in me and turned them into positive things. All of these things that I saw as shortcomings as a man, are strengths as a cocksucker. All of those things that I'm missing are filled by another man's masculine energy to complete me. I want to be submissive, I want to take orders, I want to feel like I'm not in control. I want the warmth and comfort of somebody making the decisions for me, telling me what to do, making me do something and I just have to go along with it. Sucking cock as an activity rewards these feelings with pleasure and satisfaction. As a man, sucking cock sometimes feels degrading and that I'm inferior, but as a cocksucker, I feel empowered because these are the traits I need to pleasure a man well. Feeling his hand on the back of my head pushing me towards his dick because he needs something from me would anger a real man, but it sends tingles down my spine and because I'm a cocksucker, I get aroused and turned on by this energy controlling me.

There are only two roles: the man that gets his dick sucked and the one that sucks it. When both men know their roles deeply, it is a harmonious and bonding act. I've accepted my role as the cocksucker. It's just like being on a sports team, when all the guys know their roles and accept them, they are successful. Respecting who the leader is and playing your role brings you happiness and peace. When it comes to men, the symbolic "alpha male" is my leader. He's the one with the bigger dick, the more assertive personality, the selfish confidence of being a man and getting what he wants from life. That's not me, and that's ok. I don't need to compete with a man like this, I'll never win. I admire his masculine energy, but I don't need to have it myself. I'm comfortable to just be near and around it, it's intoxicating to feel him channel that energy and direct it towards me. That's the closest I'll be to him and that's fine, because it's my role.

A man has to do manly things to be brave and feel proud of himself. As a cocksucker, I have my own bravery. I feel brave to let a man use me, to let him push his cock down my throat until there's tears in my eyes and I'm gagging. To feel his thick dick slapped all over my face and beating me up. To obey his orders and feel like I have no choice. I feel brave when I open my mouth for him with a mixed feeling of fear and excitement, but ultimately I commit and let him blow a big load of his sperm in my mouth. In life, men often experience the peer pressure feeling of "don't be a pussy!" to do something outside of their comfort zone. Maybe that's jumping into a freezing pool, or skydiving, or winning a fight. I can't get myself to do those things. But I enjoy being with dominant alpha men that give me that same feeling when I'm sucking cock, especially when they're going to cum. Knowing that they are forcing me to do something so filthy, to empty the sperm from their sack into my mouth, challenging me to man up and be brave. I personally love when he shoots a thick and salty load, maybe even a bit bitter sometimes. A load with a heaviness and strong taste to it. What's more important is feeling the energy that he is totally in control and that I feel the peer pressure of not "being a pussy." I get turned on by the mixed feelings and anxiety about swallowing it all. The feeling of pushing through and eating it all ultimately gives me immense satisfaction and I feel proud that I was able to do it.


I understand that some cocksuckers feel like the dominant one in the act and that they are taking something from a man for themselves, but I enjoy the feeling of being the receiver and being given something by him. That's just my relationship with why I suck.

[Cforme]

I,don?t advertise it, but I?m comfortable being a cocksucker. I comfortable in my own skin and my masculinity. The fact in enjoy sucking cock doesn?t take away from that. It?s just another part of sex I really enjoy

You share my own feelings exactly. I enjoy sex? simple as that. I put no labels on any of it. I love a woman?s body and can immerse myself in every single act of pleasure imaginable. That seems to be a comfortable area for everyone. But also, I find eroticism in being with another male, and enjoying every aspect of sex as well. Masculine Feminine? labels. To really enjoy another person open to just doing what we all know feels so wonderful? Pussy, cock, ass, tits, kissing, anal, embracing, all are amazing! I?ll go down on a woman and for me it?s bliss! Having her pull my head so that I don?t stop until she cums over and over? that?s what dreams are made of. Do the same on a cock, enjoying every inch, enjoying the head of a cock in my mouth while feeling him writhing and then shooting into my mouth or on my face, oh that is true joy. For me, it?s a shame to waste so much pleasure and excitement over? a label. I?m happy to be the open person I am.

[licyou69]

I'm completely comfortable with being a cocksucker in my private life. If someone wants to say I'm not coming to terms with being a cocksucker because I don't tell everybody about my private sexual life, so be it. I enjoy getting on my knees and giving myself to a man to use for his sexual pleasure. It's an incredible thrill, and there's no reason for anyone to know that, except for me and the guy who's cum I'm swallowing.

[stephmtl]

...But I enjoy being with dominant alpha men that give me that same feeling when I'm sucking cock, especially when they're going to cum. Knowing that they are forcing me to do something so filthy, to empty the sperm from their sack into my mouth, challenging me to man up and be brave. I personally love when he shoots a thick and salty load, maybe even a bit bitter sometimes. A load with a heaviness and strong taste to it. What's more important is feeling the energy that he is totally in control and that I feel the peer pressure of not "being a pussy." I get turned on by the mixed feelings and anxiety about swallowing it all. The feeling of pushing through and eating it all ultimately gives me immense satisfaction and I feel proud that I was able to do it.


I understand that some cocksuckers feel like the dominant one in the act and that they are taking something from a man for themselves, but I enjoy the feeling of being the receiver and being given something by him. That's just my relationship with why I suck.

very hot. articulates very well my feelings exactly. thanks for this thread/read!

[Justaguy325]

Coming to terms that I am a cocksucker was a slow process. I had started secretly admiring and envying other better equipped guys but never took any action on it. Later, during the last years of being a teenager and finally experiencing the delights of the opposite sex, I continued to envy guys who had a definite impact on all the pretty young ladies! What was their magnetism about? Then during a couple early relationships, I noticed my gfs lose interest in what I could not get enough of and graviate, openly or secretly, to other men. It bothered me of course, but also intrigued me. I was asking myself why I was not extremely mad at the other guy, but at the same time accepted it as a given. Some guys have it, what exactly, I did not know. By this time, I had been introduced on a lark by a buddy to porn shops with booths. I responded appropriately by saying it was disgusting, but somehow knew I would venture back on my own. Venturing back found me dressing skimpy, tiny shorts that were appropriate back then, T-shirt, shoes, nothing else. I enjoyed stripping off in the booths, in private and stealing glances into the adjacent booth if I could. Wow. First I saw one, then another guy. They easily dwarfed my 3.25 inch hard on. I was intrigued. My adventures and curiosity also took me to the adult theaters that still existed back then. Oh my god. What were some of the guys doing? I could not believe it. I stayed away from the back walls or other active areas, but could not help notice how well endowed some guys were. Enjoying my foreplay, I was sitting very much alone and isolated from the others fully naked, except for shoes (yuck), when a true experienced gentleman introduced me to the world of cock sucking. He sat one seat over from me, which petrified me. How could I hide being naked? His eyes would adjust eventually. Long story short, he approached me patiently, stroking me, getting me very very hard, then stopped, unzipped, got me interested in him, and gently and patiently had me sucking him in short time, till he emptied into my mouth. The whole time I was asking myself if I was ok with sucking cock and well, from that day on, I love pleasuring bigger men, especially if they mention it!

[gmansam]

I don't think there is any "coming to terms" about it. Once you do you know.

[elian2]

Knowing and accepting are two different things. I fought myself like crazy for the first 20+ years, I HATED what hormones did to me, and I hated myself because of it. I still had no choice, you can choose not to have sex, but it's a lot harder to "choose" who you fall in love with.

People who NEED rigid rules in their life HATE the idea of gender flexibility but it's such a relief to me to know that young people these days are at least able to TALK about it .. maybe they won't have to WASTE all the time and energy I did.

I spent a bit of time chastising dickhead trolls on Quora .. all those guys who like "the good old days"

Like where were you when all this happened to me? You didn't even know about it because we all deny it even exists? Moral purity bullshit. The "good old days" may have been simpler if you think it's okay to fuck anything with a skirt but not all of us fit into that category. Maybe simpler, not all that good. So many people confuse "Ozzy and Harriet" sitcoms on TV with real life.