Guilty Pleasures?

[spirit_dreamer07]

Hi everyone, I haven't posted in quite a while but i'm sure not many of you know me very well and some of you know me just on a friendly scale.....

I have always had problems defining who I am sexually because of my love for the Lamb of God. I know it's not best to start up on religion in any chat so thats why I put my thoughts here. I feel like everyone has their own opinions about religion and thats why I don't often bring it up.

I started thinking honestly to myself why I started looking into bisexuality...and I've found that it is simply the friendship of a woman I often hope for maybe because I was raised around little boys as a kid.

Does anyone else ever feel guilty for their actions involving the life they lead? I'm not so sure its the life I want anymore. True I've loved and been loved in the past by some beautiful and very passionate women but I can't help thinking that there has got to be more to life than being loved by someone that you know will only hurt you eventually.

[darkeyes]

Grew outa feelin guilty long ago bout me sexuality..am not tired of it, simply accept an embrace it. Circumstances now r that me has given up actively sex with one gender an me don regret that. In fact found it liberatin in so many ways. Duz miss sex with the other half. Still hanker for it but not sure its regret but ther r things more important 2 me than that. Sad ta hear ya say ya KNOW ya will b hurt in the end cos its jus not so..at least its not inevitable an most hurt can b taken an recovered from neway. Dont matta if its guy or gal, pain is always a possibility, an no 1 knos that more than me, believe me! Do feel guilt an regret bout things me has done 2 hurt people I love but that also is a thing wich makes us who we r. We r human an not perfect. We love an we get loved. We hurt an we get hurt. Thats wy we r who we r.. like ne otha form of human experience wot mattas is we learn form it an try an b stronger an wiser an take greater care in our relationships with those we love!

[happyjoe68]

I think that now I have admitted who and what I am, its allowed me to finally grow up and stop clinging to things, people and memories I thought I needed. Thats not to say I'm any more perfect than before, but now I see how much the past is the past and why I felt the way I did about relationships (cynical) and hoiw much time I wasted looking for things that werent there.

"The truth will set you free" as one member rergularly says to me. Well, maybe. But there is only one way to find out ...

Life is too short, and I do not want to spend my older years regretting all the things I never did. Happiness is all too fleeting in this life to pass it up when it comes your way.

[Herbwoman39]

...but I can't help thinking that there has got to be more to life than being loved by someone that you know will only hurt you eventually.

Oh sweetie...that's part of being in love. You put your heart out there, make yourself vulnerable with the hope that the recipient will cherish that gift.

Sometimes the gift is maltreated. My first husband took that gift, threw it in the Cuisinart and hit "liquify". I didn't think I would ever recover from the kind of betrayal I endured. I stopped believing that real love could be forever.

And then, I met my current husband, a man who is so caring and compassionate that sometimes I'm stunned at his capacity for emotion. Believe me, I didn't jump in headlong. It took me a while before I would even metaphorically dip a toe in the water. But he was patient, kind and reassuring.

We'll be married nine years in April.

He knows I'm Bi. He's my biggest supporter. I'm very fortunate to have him in my life.

I know how hard it is when you feel like you want to give up on love. You build those walls so high and so thick that it would take an army to break them down again. But all it takes is one. The right one.

Don't give up. The only person that loses is you.

Oh and just so you know, I finally believe in "forever' again :)