Where do you think your desire to eat cum came from?

[camelblue]

Question for eaters, why did you become an eater? How do you think it happened? Can you pinpoint a moment in your life or a desire/feeling that you felt that led you to become an eater?


For me, I was a late bloomer so I had a lot of friends when I was 12-13 that could already cum. I felt insecure about this, like I was inferior or less of a man than them. They felt like the "cool kids", all these boys that were developing their male sexuality. My best friend was a pretty big guy for his age, and developed pretty early. We used to lay in bed at night at sleepovers and jerk off in our beds. I couldn't cum yet though, only dry cum, and I was jealous of how big his dick looked and that he could shoot the white stuff. We watched lots of porn that we downloaded from KaZaa in the early 2000's, some of it blowjob porn with a blonde girl that deep throated her boyfriend's huge schlong and always took his thick white cum in her mouth and swallowed.


A lot of this porn charged me up sexually, but since I couldn't really cum for myself, I felt like I couldn't relate to the guy, and started to relate more to the woman. I became very curious about cum and why dicks shoot cum. I became curious about why girls liked to suck dicks, what did they get out of it, what did cum taste like? How does the guy feel like when he's cumming? The most interesting part of porn to me wasn't watching a girl's pussy get fucked, it was watching a dick cumming.


Eventually I was at a sleepover when I was 13 and it was sort of revealed that I was a late bloomer and couldn't cum. Some of the guys teased me about it. It made me feel inferior, less than them. They were already kissing girls and some of them getting bj's. Eventually they all were jerking off in their sleeping bags, when one of them suggested that since I can't cum, he dared me to blow another boy so that I'd actually have something to do. I felt shocked, scared, but that feeling of male pressure pushing on me, forcing me into a submissive role, the anxiety I felt aroused me. I agreed and started sucking his dick and immediately enjoyed it. I could feel the power radiating from his dick. Even though I have a dick, it felt like something that I didn't have. I didn't have his masculinity, the qualities that make him cool and stronger than me, and now I was sucking on his masculinity. Eventually, he came, and I didn't stop. I had been so curious about cum and ejaculating, and what it was like, and why girls enjoyed cum in their mouths in the videos, that I wanted to experience it all for myself. It felt pretty thin, kinda oily, not really any taste. Still, It made me feel complete, my curiosity satisfied, I related to this role more than the man cumming since I still wasn't able to do that. The boy told the other ones about how good it felt, nothing felt gay about it, it was just like boys discovering something exciting and wanting to try. So the other two boys begged me to do it for them and I did. The second boy barely came, seems like he just started, but the last boy was the most developed of all of us. He was about 5'7 already and had a big adult-like dick. I'll never forget what his load tasted like because it was the first time that night that I felt like I truly ate semen. He spasmed a lot more than the other boys, his shaft throbbing, and his cum was thick and salty. The other boys was like an easy dare, but this felt like a real challenge. A bit of a feeling of shock and discomfort, but i loved that feeling of fear, a feeling of being overwhelmed and not having control.


I can see now why I turned out the way that I did. I like feeling inferior to men bigger than me with bigger dicks. I like feeling a little worthless, I like the feeling of being used and overwhelmed by male sexual desire. My purpose is to pleasure men. My purpose is to always open my mouth when a throbbing dick is right in front of my face and let it squirt whatever kind of load is in there out of his balls and onto my tongue. My purpose is to fully embrace the power that male energy has over me and swallow hot ball sauce. The manlier, muskier, funkier, saltier the taste, the better. The more challenged and dominated I feel, the more aroused I am. It's hard to describe the euphoria I feel when a man holds my head in place, or the back of my neck, or my throat, as he jerks a big cock in front of my face and demands that i open my mouth. It's truly where I belong, at the tip of a penis of a man that is better than me in every way. Cock is my safe space, my comfort zone, and hot semen shooting into my mouth is my home.

[KDaddy23]

I never had this "desire" until the moment I first tasted a man's cum. He's gently fucking the head of his dick in and out of my mouth, my tongue is fluttering all over and around it and my mind is... blown. Feels and tastes weird but good. I recall being so involved with these sensations that "the next thing I knew," I felt something... warm shooting into my mouth and so much that I was actually in a crisis mode: Either swallow it or get it out of my mouth and I reflexively swallowed it. Warm; a little salty, a lot sweet (learned it was because of the booze he'd been drinking) and, oh, man, this is great!

The next day, I'm telling my friends about it - and some of them already knew about sucking dick - and I was off and running sucking dicks... and especially the ones that could shoot "the stuff" into my mouth. About a week after this mind-blowing experience, I shot my first load of stuff (into a girl); later that day, a friend sucked me off because he didn't believe I was shooting the stuff and, boy, did he get surprised! The next week, the next oldest guy shot his stuff in my mouth; salty, sweet (tasted like the Maypo he had for breakfast), warm and it just tasted good. I was hooked on sucking dick and getting a guy's stuff shot in my mouth so I could swallow it but also found out that some guys' stuff... didn't taste good at all. Now, I knew that some of my friends weren't shooting and I knew that other guys who could shoot were making those who couldn't suck their dick (or be fucked) and, yeah, because they weren't "grown up" like they were but I never felt inferior in any of what I experienced sucking dick and swallowing cum. To me, it just made sense to swallow it and more so when one guy sucked off another guy, kinda spit it out - but had gotten it on his shirt somewhere - and his parents figured out what that dried, crusty stuff was on his shirt and... beat the shit out of him. So, yeah, swallowing... left no evidence like that behind.

I admit that while it didn't make me feel inferior, it turned me into a cock-sucking fiend and I'd get mad at a guy if I sucked his dick and he didn't have anything to shoot into my mouth. But sucking a guy's dick, as it turned out for me, was one hell of an ego trip because I could make the "toughest guys" yell and scream like girls making them shoot in my mouth...

[atxbi]

With me, it’s a long story about how I started sucking dick, later in life. My first wife was the one who got me doing it, but she didn’t swallow so neither did I. But we ended sucking cocks together as foreplay. After we split I decided it’s time to see if I liked sucking dick without her as much as I did with her. Obviously it was , then I got curious about the load. I finally got up the courage and decided to go to an xxxbookstore, and get me some cum. I came out of that store telling myself,” I guess I really am a cumslut.

[BeauKnerr]

For me, it was dining on my own cum through my teen years and onward that ultimately led to my becoming a connoisseur of cum. At the onset of puberty, I became obsessed by my newfound sexuality and explored it in every way possible. I had no access to “gay” porn, so my ideas were pretty much my own. I just did what felt good and erotic. For example, I discovered that it just felt unbelievably amazing to stick a brush handle from the bathroom cabinet in my ass when masturbating. The idea that it might be a cock only occurred to me later. I also discovered that I could suck my own cock, which was amazing. It was natural to taste my own cum. I would often edge myself to the point of letting out a squirt or two to enjoy while I was still horny. Eventually, I developed the ability to suck myself all the way through orgasm and swallow my entire load. Initially, this was just me enjoying myself. Eventually, I would fantasize about the idea of sucking another nameless, faceless guy’s cock and swallowing his cum. It would be years until I got the desire to actually follow through and suck another guy and still years later until I actually would swallow for another guy. The idea of “someone else’s” sperm still seemed “foreign” to me. Eventually, I moved past that and actually began to regard the idea of consuming another man’s semen as an erotic and even somewhat sacred act. Now, I can’t imagine sucking another guy and NOT swallowing his cum — barring some unexpected event, like he tastes like shit or makes me choke. Funny how things change as we mature. Bottom line: CUM RULES!

[Rest85]

I became curious about swallowing when I had a gf who sucked me regularly. She would always swallow and she liked it. I loved straddling her and feeding her cum, then after awhile I started wondering what it would be like to be in her place instead, being the one sucking a cock. I started fantasizing about it while she was sucking me. I'd imagine myself with another man's cock slipping into my mouth.
I started using that fantasy as my gf sucked me off and it gave me such intense orgasms! I would also use the image of me sucking a cock when I'd masturbate. Eventually, when I had my first opportunity to actually suck another man's cock, I wanted it. While I was sucking, I knew that I'd try my best to swallow his cum and I did. The entire experience was so arousing!
So, my gf from back then can be credited with starting me to thinking about tasting cum. She doesn't know that.

[Chester1954]

I would eat my own cum when I jacked off then I started laying with my feet over my head trying to cum in my mouth and giving myself a facial. It wasn't until I was in my late 20's before actually having my cock sucked by a man and a week later I sucked a mans cock through a glory hole and he came in my mouth and I followed my instinct and swallowed his load. I became hooked on making men cum I guess I wanted to provide pleasure and my mouth was the instrument to do that. I was totally screwed up sexually as a kid and every time I came guilt would rush over me. By sucking men's cocks and making them cum in my mouth with no reciprocation was a way I coped with my issues. I learned about this unfortunately as AIDS was hitting the scene this kept me from trying anal sex. I had an inkling from playing with mom's vibrator that it was wonderful and was confirmed during Covid is a very wonderful feeling.

In summary I guess my desire to eat cum was from the desire to bring pleasure to another person sexually and I liked it.

[babyrmd]

Came natural the first time I sucked a cock and my head was held down on his cock and forced to swallow :) Loved it then,LOVE it now

[Warmnsalty]

My curiosity started in HS. Had girlfriends who'd suck but none would let me cum in their mouth. After the second girl refused I decided to taste and see what the deal was. I was always worked up to do it but once I shot my load in my hand I lost interest. Tried a few times but couldn't do it. Then decided to lie on my back and jerk off into my face/mouth, no turning back that way. Bingo, total turn on, can't explain it but feeling my load splatter on my face and in my mouth was so hot. From that point forward I've been addicted to swallowing my own and anyone else's I can get. Still don't understand why so few women like cum in their mouth.

[BackyardShaman]

My desire to swallow a guys cum when I suck him is for making it feel fantastic for him, I don’t mind the texture or taste at all but my goal is to take him over the edge and I know how good it feels for me when I cum in a hot mouth

[Tight1-4u]

I don’t have a desire to eat cum unless it is my own.. or for some unfortunate accident they don’t leave it in me.. then I always eat it.. no cum goes to waste.. I feel if I go to the time and energy to suck them they should fuck me and cum in me..

[Take.it.Easy]

I love feeling a cock pump cum in my mouth! It’s amazing

[guywholikesboth]

My first cock in my mouth was a forced thing I didn't suck it he fucked my mouth till he stared to cum I thought he would never stop I loved it after he finished I went home and jerked off and ate mine own I was hooked kept going back to him and played the force game started to suck other guys and eat there loads some returned the favor

[jjourneyman]

There is definitely a psychological and physical component to swallowing cum. First of all there is the psychological aspect of being willing to wrap your lips around another man's penis. Then you go through the process of letting him use your mouth (and throat) for his pleasure. On the surface, that seems like a submissive act. In reality, once you get past the fact that you have a cock in your mouth and are willing to suck him to completion, it becomes a dominant act. After all, you have his penis between your jaws and things could go south very badly if anything were to happen. Plus, you're willing to do something for him most people, probably even his wife or girlfriend wouldn't do... which is swallow his semen. At the end of the act, who is dominant or submissive? It's all a matter of perspective.

It's a choice. And a life lesson. Fortunately, I figured it out in my early teens. Once I swallowed my first load, I was hooked on the whole experience. The cum was literally the icing on the cake.

[chongster]

I had a lot of sex with guys as a top. I would suck cock in foreplay before fucking. Most of the guys would cum while I was fucking them, some didn't but still seemed happy. I would always cum fucking them. I had thought about letting another guy cum in my mouth for a long time before I finally did it.
He was a top I met on squirt and he said he would only let me suck him though a glory hole so I made one up at a house I was working on and invited him over one morning. I never saw his face but he had a big beautiful cock and I had worked myself up enough to finally go for for it.
I sucked every drop out of that big boy and loved it! He left and I got myself off and ate that too! I have sucked quite a few since then but still like to top only now if he doesn't cum while I'm fucking him I'm happy to suck him off after.

[swvsucker]

Well. I am not positive where my desire came from, but I can tell you that the very first time I saw cum I wanted it. I was 12 and my uncle had a stash of old Betamax porn movies. One day I was over visiting my cousin and he showed me them. I picked out a random one and the very first scene was a girl sucking a super fat cock and when the guy came he shot into her open mouth. When I saw that I was instantly curious. About 1.5 years later I had my first wet dream and a son as I realized what was happening I are my cum. It was the most delicious thing I had ever tasted. A few months later when I sucked my first cock I absolutely knew that I wanted his cum and did not hesitate to slurp it down. I was hooked and have eaten every drop I can get since then.

[eager4cum]

for me, my 1st time eating cum was not a desire at all. It was a need to clean up and the only way I thought to clean up was to eat it all, then there would be no mess to find by other family members. It really was probably more an instinctual impulse than anything else. However, once I ate my cum the 1st time, THEN it became a desire. A real surprise to me was how much I wanted to eat my cum after that 1st experience. Since then (over 58 years), my desire grew to the point that now it is my fetish, I can not be fully satisfied until I have eaten all my cum with each orgasm.

[licyou69]

After learning my first wife was cheating on me, I also learned that I had been eating his cum she was bringing home in her. I knew something tasted different. More musky and salty. Later from that I became enamored with cuckold porn. Eventually the desire increased to just taking the load of cum direct from the source instead of eating it secondhand from a pussy.

[foundpuppy]

My beginning was knowing that a blow job wasn?t complete or finished until the recipient orgasmed. An orgasm includes cumming so, in order to be neat and not messy, I swallow. The taste is different depending on the person. It would be interesting to explain why I had cum on my face.

[CockHummer]

It strikes me as a somewhat odd question, only because I wanted to suck cum out of my best friend's cock from the instant I got it in my mouth. As it was, I always just presumed it was like a human instinct or something along those lines to want to suck cum out of a penis if you were sucking it for erotic pleasure, anyway, and why on earth else would you do it?

I hadn't thought about that aspect in advance, but it had been weeks that the two of us walked around together aching to get into each other's pants one summer but both afraid to say anything to the other, I imagine for fear of a negative reaction, so when it finally happened, we were sexually on fire. Unfortunately, the first night when we finally came to realize that we'd both been waiting desperately to get naked together and play with each other's dick, we were just all over the place, desperately trying just about everything we had ever heard of in terms of sex between two guys. We amazedly gazed at and stroked each other's erect cock first, and it felt out of this world. Then we tried sucking each other's dick, but we were so extraordinarily excited and anxious to try anything that had ever occurred to us, we didn't even try to sit or lie down or anything that would make it easy or convenient or comfortable, but stood on our feet right in the middle of the neighborhood street, sucking bent over while contorted in odd positions that somehow failed to distract from the wonderful feelings it generated. That was amazing, but we still couldn't just stay focused, and once we'd tried sucking each other's cock for a little while, we decided to try and fuck each other in the ass, but we were entirely unprepared. We had no sort of lubricant, and it didn't even occur to us to try to use saliva, so we were dry as a bone(r), and we just got the thrill of feeling a cock head pressing against our anus and pushing, and just that felt great, but we did not get beyond that on the first night, because even though it was like 2:30 in the morning on a very rural backwoods street, all of a sudden, a car turned down the road, we were stark naked standing well out in the middle of the road with obvious erections and absolutely no time to hide before we were seen, and that pretty much put our first glorious night together to an end.

Of course, it had been really stupid to try fucking right out in the middle of my friend's neighborhood street, anyway, but we were both so fucking horny by the time that we each finally came to realize, after weeks of just walking side by side hoping that the other wanted sex as much as we did, that it just happened automatically, without either of us saying a word or thinking much about what we were doing when it finally happened, and being right out in the middle of the street, where it was one house right after the other on both sides and we could only pray, with all the lights out, as they were, that no one would suddenly waken and turn on their lights and catch us. But any way we looked at it, it had really added to the excitement of being absolutely naked and obviously sexually stimulated, and having left our clothes where we could not readily hide and hope to get dressed in a hurry if we had been found. And somehow, on top of all that, a car appearing at that wee hour of the morning was the last thing on our minds, so although it all came crashing down on us out of nowhere, it had all been stupendously exciting.

In terms of the question at hand here, though, we had been so focused on trying to do everything sexual two men could do together that we could think of, that we didn't really finish much of anything and were just incredibly excited and turned on by every bit of it, so the question of swallowing cum didn't really fit the context that first night. Like I said, we were just experimenting with everything, and as great as sucking his cock felt, before we got anywhere near to cumming, we had instantaneously moved right on to attempting butt fucking and were in the midst of trying that desperately, right when the car came along and broke up our wonderful first homosexual experience, so the question of swallowing cum didn't really have opportunity to fit in.

After that experience, though, we became considerably more cautious about selecting a location for our subsequent erotic journey. Well, the word considerably is perhaps a little bit exaggerated. In fact, the only change was that the next night, instead of dropping our drawers right out in the middle of Jimmy's neighborhood street, we walked down a recently built side street off of his road, where as yet only one house had been built, so we figured we had even less reason to fear that the house's lights would suddenly come on or that a car would appear out of nowhere and catch us having sex together. Of course, in retrospect it now occurs to me that a new street with a cul de sac and only one house on it might be a perfect attraction for a young couple anxiously looking for a place to go parking in their car late on a summer night, but regardless of that whole issue, as it turned out, we were left entirely alone that next night. Not a soul appeared to distract us from our wonderful intentions.

We were excited--sexually excited and just excited to be able to experiment with sex with a degree of patience that was not part of the first night's experience at all. Despite the pretty clear degree of safety, we still added to the excitement a bit by stripping naked a couple of hundred feet from where we would do the dirty, so if someone showed up, we would again have no hope of reconnecting with our clothes and covering up. As low as the likelihood of that happening was, even the slight risk added to the erotic stimulation. We sat upright at first at the edge of the grassy, circular median at the center of the turn-around, just enjoying being together naked under a big, bright moon, with a warm summer night's air and the presumptions that we were going to have sex, that it was going to feel like we were making love, and that we would be far more patient to act in ways that we would be really enjoying it and in staying focused to the point that we would much more likely effectively cum than we had the night before.

Just to put it on the table, Jimmy was and is gay. Back in the day, queer was the word for it, and he was queer. In any neighborhood sex play, I tended to be more interested primarily in the girls, but if he called on me to stroke his cock, while I was happy to do it for him, it never had seemed to excite me in the way that I now suddenly found myself excited to be with him. I'm not at all certain what had happened to bring on this big change in me, because finally, I was more excited in knowing that I was going to suck him off than I had ever been excited by any sexual thought before, at all. I had always thought I was straight from any prior experience, but all of a sudden I knew that now I was sexually excited by both boys and girls, and that at that particular moment, one particular boy had me more sexually excited than I had ever felt before by anyone. At perhaps three o'clock in the morning on this one odd summer night, after several weeks of craving him sexually, I suddenly felt like I was in love and on the verge of having sex with my lover for the very first time.

I mentioned that Jimmy was gay for a reason. While we never discussed it after the fact, once we were there together, under the moon, naked, and anxious to tease each other sexually, he took right over and conducted the undertaking as if he had had considerable prior experience. He had us lie side by side on the plush grass of the median, facing each other with our bodies aligned so our mouths were each directly aimed at the other's firm cock. He had us bend the leg lying on the ground at the hip and knee, so our fleshy thighs acted like pillows for each other's head, from where it could comfortably slide while easily slipping our hungry mouths on and off the other's cock, which was more comfortable than it might have otherwise been and which kept our mouths right in line with each other's erotically energized and firmly erect cock.

So here I come finally to the point tied directly to the question in this thread. I found the experience of feeling every aspect of his erect cock with my tongue and lips and throat to be astoundingly thrilling in the erotic sense. I could feel the shape that I had only seen before with my eyes or felt with my hands and fingers. The sensitivity of the tongue was so great that I understood the shape and feeling of a sexually excited cock in a way I never had before, and all I wanted to do was feel his dick thoroughly with my tongue while he intently fucked my mouth and I sucked his gorgeous fat penis with one clear goal in mind. I wanted to get him to cum. I wanted him to cum in my mouth. I wanted to swallow every last drop of his cum. That was all automatic. It just seemed perfectly natural given the circumstances. I didn't have to think about it even one little bit.

Of course, as luck or bad luck would have it, I was devastatingly stimulated, and the more intently I sought to get him to cum, the more absurdly excited I became. In the end, I came hard in his mouth long before he was anywhere near ready to cum, and while I would have patiently awaited his coming to the same end, sucking him just as avidly even after I had reached orgasm, it was late and he was tired, and the night was sexually caput. I was so intently excited, that by the time we got back to my house, I would have loved to have sex again, and I let him know, but he was done for the night, and that was that. All I knew (and I have no idea why I knew it or why it was true) was that I would be anxious to have sex with him again and again, with a primary focus and intention of bringing him to cum in my mouth and having him feed me a load of fresh, hot cum.

[KDaddy23]

Thanks for sharing this. That moment of discovery is... powerful. As I read, I could "feel" what the two of you were feeling and it brought back some memories of being in such a moment with a guy and we just knew that we had to have sex.