Feeling of being worthless??

[deletetacount123]

Has anyone ever felt life was worthless. meanless, your sitting there wondering what the heck your purpose is on earth ??

Ive been feeling like this on and off for ages.... sure Im happy, I have a job now which kinda makes things better but Im VERY lonely inside.
No friends no matter how hard I try (im talking about real life by the way), its like no one wants to bother with me.

Yes I know people like that probably aren't worth being around with but it still bothers me. Everyone keeps telling me "you'll find someone soon" (friend or love) but WHEN??? lol that line has been said to me so many times I don't believe it anymore. (Cause nothing happens)

Sometimes I wonder why Im here. What am I suppose to be doing? Ugh.

Some nights I get so strangely happy and giggly for no reasons at all. Its like "where did THAT come from??"

I was just thinking about Britney Spears early songs... one lyrics has "My lonliness is killing me.........." umm sounds like me right now.

I have pently of online friends but I want RL ones to. Why won't RL ones give me a chance?? Im a fun person.

Tasha

[woolleycouple]

Tasha sometimes reality does suck but and people do too. I know I have a hard time making friends outside of my area and I have no Bi rl friends at all. You will don't worry you personalty shows through in your writing and you heart does too you just need to have faith that your destiny will bring you someone. We are here for you hon.

[jedinudist]

I ride that same ride frequently.

Plenty of online friends, extremely few real life ones, and constantly wondering why I'm here.

[DuskTillDawn]

To tell you the truth having friends doesnt always help. I have plenty friends but I might know kind of how you feel. I can be in a room full of people and they might aswell not be there. Most people I know just seem so pointless to me.

I find that if Im with lots of people thats when I feel lonely. There are a couple of people in my life that I can be around and not feel lonely, but only if its just the two of us. Do you get what I mean. Im just having a bit of a ramble, plz ignore the pointless thought-process bits.

Lou x

[erotix]

Do somehing interesting and become and intersting person. read. think. get inovled in the community... grow yourself. Your problem is you are young and self absorbed. Forget that. Buy a vibe in the meantime



Has anyone ever felt life was worthless. meanless, your sitting there wondering what the heck your purpose is on earth ??

Ive been feeling like this on and off for ages.... sure Im happy, I have a job now which kinda makes things better but Im VERY lonely inside.
No friends no matter how hard I try (im talking about real life by the way), its like no one wants to bother with me.

Yes I know people like that probably aren't worth being around with but it still bothers me. Everyone keeps telling me "you'll find someone soon" (friend or love) but WHEN??? lol that line has been said to me so many times I don't believe it anymore. (Cause nothing happens)

Sometimes I wonder why Im here. What am I suppose to be doing? Ugh.

Some nights I get so strangely happy and giggly for no reasons at all. Its like "where did THAT come from??"

I was just thinking about Britney Spears early songs... one lyrics has "My lonliness is killing me.........." umm sounds like me right now.

I have pently of online friends but I want RL ones to. Why won't RL ones give me a chance?? Im a fun person.

Tasha

[Solomon]

read positive self help books

listen to positive self help CD's

look for the people that have what you want

do whatever you need to do to be around'em

[Azrael]

I get this a lot. Over the years I've swallowed a lot of seething resentment about my family. Not all of them, but the majority. I never really cut myself any slack. I'm not as severe as I used to be in this regard, but I still have a great deal of self loathing. I keep it under control, having a good therapist who doesn't give me any shit about who I am helps. He's pretty insightful, it was he who diagnosed me as Asperger's. I have a tendency to let the what-ifs eat at me and I spend way too much time agonizing about how my life fell to peices while I was manic. I know this shit is mind over matter. Nothing made me feel more worthless than when I was committed and my uncle drove across the state to lecture me on how "it's not natural". My family seemed at the time to think that me being queer was because I was "out of my head" or something. It kills me that I let it get to me as much as I do. That said, my family that I'm real with and my friends keep me alive.

[flexuality]

For what it's worth.....

Something I picked up along the way in regards to the "what if's"...or the "if only I had's".....

I read in the book "Feeling Good" by Dr David Burns MD (a book on depression) that seeing as I can't change the past, it would be an idea to word it as "next time I will do _______" instead of "what if I had done_______".

doesn't change what did happen.....but it did give me another way to look at it without beating myself up quite so much......

That book is actually really good...it has a lot of practical stuff that helps.

I'm also becoming more and more convinced that trying to "get rid" of feelings is NOT a good idea. Including feelings of worthlessness or depression.

Matter of fact, I am sitting here right now feeling both of those...I'm just letting them "be there" without trying to "get rid" of them....it's quite a different experience than in the past when I was either trying NOT to feel that, or was trying to "cheer myself up" cuz I figured I shouldn't feel that way. Or trying to find a "reason" for why I felt like that....

shit...right now, I just DO. I don't want someone to "cheer me up" or "make" me feel better....cuz it's invalidating. It sends a message that the way I feel right now is "not okay."

this was gonna be a short post....

[jem_is_bi]

Tasha, I really hope you find the love of your life. However, you cannot let how long it takes or if it happens, be the only factor that determines how you rate your importance to others. Rather, think of how you contribute to your family and community. You have even touched others like myself with your basic goodness.
For me, finally expressing my true sexuality has added to my happiness but has never been a factor in determining my self-worthiness. Therefore, please have multiple goals for life. One of which is sexual fulfillment and another I would recommend is to make the world a better place because you were born.

JEM

[deletetacount123]

To tell you the truth having friends doesnt always help. I have plenty friends but I might know kind of how you feel. I can be in a room full of people and they might aswell not be there. Most people I know just seem so pointless to me.

I find that if Im with lots of people thats when I feel lonely. There are a couple of people in my life that I can be around and not feel lonely, but only if its just the two of us. Do you get what I mean. Im just having a bit of a ramble, plz ignore the pointless thought-process bits.

Lou x

HI Lou,
Yes I know what you mean and your rambling makes me smile! lol I tend to ramble too. Nothing wrong with it... just means you have more to say and your not done yet hehe

Ya, a lot of times I perfer to just be the 2 of us too rather than a group.
I just don;t like to be BY myself lol but with 1 or 2 people with me Im happy. If more then 2 poeple Im wishing all but 1 to go away lol

I get VERY left out in a group tho.... i mean if everyone can hear then ya, they are all talking, maybe different converstations at once and Im like "uh ok." *trying to figure out what that person is saying then another* it can get fusterating so I'll just leave. lol But its funny tho... if someone's sensing what Im thinking all of a sudden they'll say something like "Oh Tash, tell them what you told me about......" Which is nice tho :) hehe

Tasha

[pecker]

Tasha.......Read my quote on Emotionl Awarness

[TorontoGuy2007]

>Has anyone ever felt life was worthless. meanless, your sitting there wondering what the heck your purpose is on earth ??

yes, i've definitely questioned the meaning of life and the relevance of it..

>I have pently of online friends but I want RL ones to. Why won't RL ones give me a chance?? Im a fun person.

move to Toronto and i will be the best RL friend you'll ever have!

[deletetacount123]

Tasha, I really hope you find the love of your life. However, you cannot let how long it takes or if it happens, be the only factor that determines how you rate your importance to others. Rather, think of how you contribute to your family and community. You have even touched others like myself with your basic goodness.
For me, finally expressing my true sexuality has added to my happiness but has never been a factor in determining my self-worthiness. Therefore, please have multiple goals for life. One of which is sexual fulfillment and another I would recommend is to make the world a better place because you were born.

JEM

Hi Jem:

O/T but do you realize you keep reminding me of the 80s Cartoon I was so obessed with as a child? lol There was a all female band called "Jem and the Holograms" and the show was very popluar, I used to watch it all the time and had almost everything that came out with JEM on it lol

back on topic:
Your right and you make good points too :) Thats one reason I got the job to take my mind off things and be doing something!! :) Im getting into reading again and now I realized since my ex stole my bookcase, I need a new one.. the one I have is about to crack from all the pressure of books stacked on it!!
lol

[deletetacount123]

>Has anyone ever felt life was worthless. meanless, your sitting there wondering what the heck your purpose is on earth ??

yes, i've definitely questioned the meaning of life and the relevance of it..

>I have pently of online friends but I want RL ones to. Why won't RL ones give me a chance?? Im a fun person.

move to Toronto and i will be the best RL friend you'll ever have!

Mmmmm but honey, where will I live? I don't have the money yet to make a big move :)

*hugs you*
That poster above you hurt my feelings...... *cuddles in your arms*

[TorontoGuy2007]

where will I live? I don't have money *cuddles in your arms*

you can live in my arms as long as you want, my dear, and it won't cost you any money either!

[TorontoGuy2007]

just an aside, i find it interesting to see the words "Worthless" and "Britney Spears" mentioned together.. lol

[12voltman59]

I felt that way quite often when I was younger---it made things tough but I somehow pulled through it all--

It may take awhile Tasha--but you will get past those feelings too---

Don't give up and keep moving ahead one step at a time--one day at a time

[jem_is_bi]

Hi Jem:

O/T but do you realize you keep reminding me of the 80s Cartoon I was so obessed with as a child? lol There was a all female band called "Jem and the Holograms" and the show was very popluar, I used to watch it all the time and had almost everything that came out with JEM on it lol

back on topic:
Your right and you make good points too :) Thats one reason I got the job to take my mind off things and be doing something!! :) Im getting into reading again and now I realized since my ex stole my bookcase, I need a new one.. the one I have is about to crack from all the pressure of books stacked on it!!
lol



Wow! Back in the late 1960’s, I made a lot of holograms with lasers and photographic plates. Some were the size of a window pane and recreated 3D images that were animated as you changed viewing angle. I am a male, so, I was never in an all female band.

JEM

[Krystal]

Hi, i used to get this feeling a lot ....i still do at times...and this may not help you but i found i had lost the FUN in my life... i kept saying that i missed how much FUN my life was when i was younger and how i hated that i had to grow up and be serious .....
where in fact i didnt HAVE to grow up and be serious ...i CHOSE to be serious and didnt like it ....just as i have found that the world 'should'accept ppl for whatever sexuality they are i also feel that people need to accpet all things about people...
have you ever noticed that when someone does something down the street that you 'would never do' it is you that gets embarrassed but the person doing it has a smile on their face ?
i play hopscotch in the street a lot ...i am 35 ...they make the ground out of squares and what i remember from childhood is that squares mean hopscotch ..if they dont want me to play hopscotch in the shopping centre then they need to change the floor from squares to circles....i don't throw the rock i just jump the squares... little things like that can change your day drastically ...too many people have lost the ability to have fun...i am not saying you have i dont know you well enough ..maybe you do these sorts of things but fun can always lighten a mood and will attract new people to your life cause they will see you as being fun to be around... run through the sprinklers and jump in the mud puddles and play skipping rope and have fun !!!
life is too short to live by the rules of society and get boring and have no fun.

[raistkit]

hi everyone has said things much better than i could. i just wanted you to know you're not alone. right now i have everything in my life i could want. a loving husband who accepts me for who and what i am. very supportive daughter and son inlaw. whom even if they do'nt quite understand what mom and dad are up to they still love and accept us. however 2 or 3 times a week i wake up in the middle of the night feeling sad. i don't know why this happens. sometimes a good cry helps, release valve i guess. yes i've been in a room full of people and it all seems so pointless, and yeah sometimes i go home too. i think we all feel this way from time to time. as far as meeting the right person is concerned i think luck has a lot to do with it. i waved at a cute guy in a blue truck 30 yrs ago, and we're still together. my advice smile and wave. and when you're sad i find a bubble bath and a good book help take me away from it all. keep the faith kit

[Spicy]

Oh Honey, wish you were here so i could give you a hug, u can write to me via email or message and i will be happy to write back to you. Do you have a cochlear implant? will be happy to talk to you. I have a daughter who has a cochlear implant will be happy to talk to you about life on this side of the globe.

Spicy