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[red_riding_hood_27]

Hi, everyone. Hope all is good. Well over the past week I have been thinking again. I know can be dangerous. I apreciate all who have emailed me and chatted with. It has answers some of my questions and fears. These are some of my random thoughts from an str8 female. No matter what you guys say to us that it isn't us that you love both men and women. It will allways in one way hurt and the feeling of rejection may creep up from time to time. I know now that for the rest of my life I wil allways wonder what the hell the attraction is. I also come to the conclusion that my husband is a Virgin. (I know how a woman feels) When a virgin sees the sex act or even kisses someone they just know they feel funny. THey want it but they don't know what it is. So here is my husband who sees it, thinks about it, and fantasizes about it. This is the deal I have laid on the table for him. Chat around talk to others. If there happens to be someone you are interested in let me know. If it develops that you would like to meet also let me know. Go ahead experience it. Then afterwards think on it. I don't want to be lie to. I like to know if this is something he has experienced and now is okay with us doing role playing in the bedroom. That yes he might want to again but it does not take up his mind space. Or this is something he loves and that he finnalys knows now what would make him happy. Yes, I am scared but I will have to work thru those emotions. No, I could not watch someone I love getting serviced by someone else. To me that is my job. Also I don't want another man. I have no desire to be with anyone else. I am sexually attractive to my husband.

I have to say though I joke with him at times. After we go to the Mall I will ask if there anyone there he saw. Of course he says no. Two days agao driving home from the Mall I ask him. He said no and I had to agree. There was nothing there. We were listening to "Save a horse, Ride a Cowboy". I told him I allways was attracted to Cowboys. (don't know why). I asked him did he want one. He smiled, I told him we have something in common. I checked my email last night. He sent me a pic of a Cowboy. Really good cowboy. The line in topic said Found you a Cowboy". The first time he has shared.

I did it. Went to the store and bought a strap on. Was a little weirded out at first. It was man at the counter. But he was a easy going type of guy so it wasn't that bad. I had to see if the belt would fit around my waist. So I put it on..there happen to be a another guy in the shop. Man he was watching me I think he was a little turn on.. I thought it was funny!!!
Well now I have to get up the gusto to strap on and bang him :tongue:



Okay several has asked why did I put pictures on my profile. At first I did not know. Something to do and let you see who you were talking to. Then I was getting compliments. I liked it. I have not felt sexy or desirable for over an year now. It took me a little bit to figure it out once I did then I had to explain to my husband. Told him that I don't see what yall see. I just see a picture of me. Just me. It feels nice to be noticed. Especially since I don't think he has really noticed me for awhile now. So I like to thank the ones who talked with me...It was nice to hear! ;)
Okay I have rambled enough.
Have a great day
Angela

[Mrs.F]

:bigrin: Go Angela, Go Angela!

I think you are being great and very supportive of your husband. It's been a very hard time for you and you've been wonderful and trying to help him through all of it. I know things are not figured out for sure yet, but atleast your joking about things now.

I know I commented on your pics already but again, you are beautiful and sexy and you need to feel that way. My husband commented on your pics also and thought the same. I may be str8, but I know when a woman is pretty and sexy. :rolleyes:

Now that you have your strap on, make hubby wear a cowboy hat so you can ride your cowboy!! :cowboy:

Take care sweetie.

[red_riding_hood_27]

Oh also Forgot to say.. When we were at the mall I say a kisoq that Egyptian scarves and stuff. She asked if I was interested in Belly Dancing. I love to learn but never knew of a class. However we live to far from her to go to class. But she had an DVD so I can learn. I bought a scarf and two for my daughters. One of my twins are really getting into the DVD. It is so cute to see her try. I haven't tried it yet. But I hope to when he goes back to work on Monday!

[Sparky]

Angela -

Very thoughty posting. I am a straight bi male, if that makes sense. To your definition, a virgin. I now know that bisexualty has always been a very normal thing to me that I just never had an opportunity to act on, because of course, women rule! I have thoughts about going outside our marriage to satisfy them but have not acted for practically all the various reasons you see posted here. But I don't share a lot with my wife either. Why? Because she would only see it as a threat and to me there is no threat to our relationship. Now comes the next part... It is a major, and good move that you have made the effort to purchase a strap-on. We have shared a strap-on for years, and it does turn my wife on a bit to engage in the gender swapping role. However, this past weekend something happened. She didn't just fuck me with 'our friend' she actually made love to me. We made love. Passionately. It was overwhelming. It has seriously affected any thought I had about going outside our marriage. So when you slip into that harness, make it an extension of yourself, and give your husband what he craves! Good luck and let us know how it goes!
-Sparky