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[COLOR=#b22222][U]The following incident is true. I usually never do things like this but it seemed to be the right thing to do. ENJOY!!

[/U][/COLOR][FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]My wife was away for a while on a business trip and I was feeling kind of bored so I took a ride to the local book and tape store to see what was out. If I am interested in someone I will walk by and look at what they are looking at then return and comment then retreat back into the video section. The tables were turned this time. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]It was mid-day and the store was empty. The clerk was not in sight and I began to worry as this store had been robbed before. So I opened and closed the door again and finally heard, “back here”. I shouted ok and continued to the back. The clerk was an Emo kid, cute, tight, but not too skinny. He was putting up product and asked if I needed help. Jokingly I told him, “well my wife is away and I am bored. What do you think I need help with,” I smiled and continued on. He giggled and went back up front. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]Browsing the videos I picked one title up and started reading the back. It was gay college sex parties rolled into one DVD so I held it as I went to pick up another I was told I would like this one. The clerk had handed me a DVD with several young guys, I’m 48, from Boy Crush. I looked at it and it was funny because the kid looked like one of them on the box. I smiled and said thanks. He hovered around for a minute and then asked if I was going to be here a while. I said yes and continued to browse. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]He returned rather quickly then he introduced himself as Tad. I smiled and reached for his hand and told him I was Matt. “Cool”, he said nervously. I smiled and asked if he was ok. He smiled back, “You said you were home alone and bored and I was wondering if I could unbore you?” I asked him what that meant coyly knowing full well what he meant. He moved closer and reached for my hard-on and started rubbing it. I looked around. “Don’t worry. We get forty minutes for lunch and when we lock the doors we get to turn everything off.” I looked up. “That’s off. The owner is gay himself and has friends here after closing. Lunch can be whatever you want it to be. He is a cool guy to work for.”[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]Tad was closer now and started to undo my belt buckle and already had my zipper down. He knelt in front of me and unbuttoned my Levis releasing my cock. Pre-cum bubbled out and Tad was quick to clean it up. Taking my cock into his mouth he worked it slowly soaking each inch with saliva making it slick and harder. I looked down into his eyes and noticed his cock was out too. “My god”, I thought, it was long and slender but very nice. He looked up at me then down to his own cock and I reached down and pulled him up by his chin slowly. I leaned into him and not knowing what came over me drove my tongue down his throat in a kiss so passionate that it rivaled those I gave my wife and I am not a kisser of men. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]Our tongues danced and played for the longest time and all the while my hand stroked Tad’s nicely shaped cock. With every stroke he drove his tongue deeper and I knew where he was going with it. I pulled away and he looked down and I looked down and noticed he had worked his pants off. No underwear. I reached around and grabbed his ass and pulled him in tighter and kissed him deeper. Our cocks touched and jumped. He slowly turned on me and pushed his tight ass against my cock and bent at the waist ever so slightly. My cock jumped again and he reached around and guided it to his tiny bung. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
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[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]He grabbed his cheeks and pulled them apart and his ass opened with it. Amazed I just pushed it in and it was like silk. He grabbed the video rack in front of him and held on. I was now doing bareback which I was not really into but seriously enjoying. He groaned and bucked and pushed back. I had to slow him down or I was going to lose it. He kept begging me to fuck him harder all the while my balls slapping his sack made a noise the next store could hear.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]I reached around and started stroking his cock which he liked but had me stop. So I reached up and grabbed a nipple which was hard as a rock and began to twist and pull lightly and sharply. He groaned again and then he didn’t stop. He twisted which brought his right nipple to me and I leaned hoping not to lose the cock/ass connection and sucked his nipple. He turned back and pushed his ass harder at me. I was getting close and we both felt it. I grabbed his hips and pumped him for everything we both had at once we both shivered and my cock let loose a first stream…the hand was quick.[/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]Tad had turned and grabbed me on the second shot and knelt quickly enough to take the rest in his mouth which was turning me on and making me even harder, to the point so, it hurt. I placed my hands on his face and slowly slid my cock onto his tongue cum streaming. He stroked me and completely drained me and that hurt too![/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]He stood and placed me back in my pants. He started to walk towards the bathroom while I buttoned up and made sure things were in the places they were when I walked in. I heard water then gargling. I laughed. He came out and asked me to kiss him again. I obliged longingly because I may not get this chance again…guiding me to a counter he jumped up on it all his cock still hard and pressing through his tight pants. I moved closer and pulled his cock out. “You don’t have to do that. I did and got what I wanted”, he said smiling. Looking at his nice cock and then back to his hot grey eyes I told him I didn’t finish what I started and leaned into his crotch and took his cock deeply. He leaned back and I worked it fast and hard stroking it and soaking it. I slipped a finger into his ass and devoured his cock to his balls. I let it go then sucked his sack, clean shaven and slick. Looking up at him he grabbed my head and pushed it down impaling my mouth and throat but no worries. [/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]The stream was thick, sweet, and filling my mouth fast. He came so much I had to grasp him and pull off to swallow then go back down to finish. Finally I stood up and patted his cock as he put it away. He slid off the counter and leaned in to kiss me and we did as passionately as the first. I took the videos and walked to the front. Tad checked me out and I handed him my address. Three more hard cumming, hard fucking, passionate kissing nights followed. FUN![/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3][COLOR=#000000]Tad, I know you will read this. Thanks![/COLOR][/SIZE][/FONT]

There is a small chimpanzee that is known for its high levels of sexual behavior and bisexuality without monogamy. Sex functions in conflict appeasement, affection, social status, excitement, and stress reduction. It occurs in virtually all partner combinations and in a variety of positions. This is a factor in the lower levels of aggression seen in the Bonobo when compared to the common chimpanzee and other apes.

Bonobos are the only non-human animal to have been observed engaging in all of the following sexual activities: face-to-face genital contact, kissing and oral sex. They also do not seem to discriminate in their sexual behavior by sex or age, with the possible exception of abstaining from sexual intercourse between mothers and their adult sons.

Bonobo males occasionally engage in various forms of male-male genital behavior. In one form, two males hang from a tree limb face-to-face while "penis fencing". I have heard human men referring to this activity as "sword fighting" with their penises. This also may occur when two males rub their penises together while in face-to-face position. We humans call that "frotting". Another form of genital interaction ("rump rubbing") occurs to express reconciliation between two males after a conflict, when they stand back-to-back and rub their scrotal sacs together. How many bi men enjoy another man's scrotal sac rubbing his as well? If men generally got over homophobia and biphobia, this might be a pleasurable way to resolve your conflicts with other men rather than a hand shake?

Interestingly, female-female genital behaviour is not reported. Is that due to patriachal sexism amongst primatoligists?

I think that in some cases, it is a good idea to share your love as freely as the Bonobos. Now, would I be as free and loving as the Bonobo bisexual chimpanzees? I don't think that I'd be as loving as them. Do I consider it wrong? Absolutely not. There is always more need for love sexual or platonic in this world.

It is reported that when Bonobos come upon a new food source or feeding ground, the increased excitement will usually lead to communal sexual activity, presumably decreasing tension and encouraging peaceful feeding. Just image if such a philosophy existed within the human species what might that lead to? Would it reduce war and conflict? Imagine when a new oil source is found, all nations send delegates to determine how to split up the oil. There might be a large bisexual lovefest that would make the 1960's look like a kindergarten class on a visit to a shoe store. Peacefully, they would return to their country to share in an equal allotment of oil. Would this be the end of capitalism as we know it?

How would this impact monosexuals and monogamists in humans? I'm not quite sure. Some may argue that "we" are not animals. Well, we actually are animals and more specifically primate mammals like the Bonobos. Both humans and Bonobos have opposable thumbs. (different locations though) Others may argue that human social behaviour and morals are of a higher nature than chimpanzees. Point taken. If that is your perspective, you may want to stop reading at this juncture then as this is only the ramblings of a bisexual man who is free thinking. I suspect that the larger common chimpanzees would agree with you that Bonobos are not moral. Then again, the sexual behaviour of Bonobos comes closer to human sexuality than the common apes. We as a species may be closer to the Bonobos than other primates?

The monogamists may experience anxiety or be rather offended if they were dropped in amongst a group of Bonobo bisexual humans. It certainly would give the monogamist cause to pause to find that monogamy has become an outdated mode of love. Would the monogamous join in or sit in the corner cowering muttering about as a partner they have rights. Maybe, they would get on their soap box making statements about cheating and pointing out that Bonobos are using their bisexuality as an excuse to cheat.

Would the monogamists eventually acknowledge that the each in the community exists as partners with every other citizen? Would pair bonding disappear in time? Would that make us communists or jihadists?

Are you a Bonobo bisexual human male or female in some of your sexuality? Love well my brothers and sisters.

I really started checking out the site a little more...And wow! Theres groups on here.....That's a awesome idea..
Only if other sites would do the same thing, awesome idea Drew! :)

I have no reason to do this, other than to share all this crap about my life. Will anybody read it? I really don't care. Will I regret it? Proably. Will I ever run for political office so that it can be dragged out and used against me? NEVER!!

So, having said that, here I am. Frustrated, confused, still a bit pissed at my whole marraige situation. Perhaps it was all for the best. As I mentioned in my ad, this will give me a chance to explore my sexuality and reconcile it with my life.

Ok, that is a good start for now. We will see where this goes, and why. I can't promise continual entries. Hopefully I can do the sporatic entries and get the stuff out as I can.

Any comments are welcome from anybody bored enough to read this.
Satyr

Yeah,the Aretha Franklin song is awesome but that's not what I'm blogging about. I've noticed lately a common theme in a lot of threads about rights of partners in a bisexual relationship. Some feel partners have no rights, it's all about the bisexual. Some feel the partners matter and deserve to have a say in what happens sexually with their partner. Some feel that bisexuals should not come out to partners and just go behind their backs and have their bisexual needs met. Some feel that being bisexual is the excuse they need to cheat. I don't believe it is. I believe that when you are in a relationship with someone you love, you need to be open and honest about who you are. If there is a compromise that can be reached to help you deal with cravings, you should take it. If there is no compromise that can be reached then you need to make a decision about where you want the relationship to go.

I am lucky, I have a partner that is totally committed to me. I gave him permission to have a male sex partner if he needed but I was told that it would cause more conflict within him. He'd rather be monogamous which suited me just fine as I had just ended a relationship full of cheating.

But people need to respect the fact that not everyone is out there looking for open relationships and vice versa people need to respect the fact that not everyone is looking for a lifetime of faithfulness.

Respect, it's not a bad thing to have for people and will cause fewer issues. Disagreements about philosophies is one thing, constantly telling people they are wrong because you don't agree with their OPINION is another. And yes respect is a lot different from tolerance. Respect means you actually hear the other side's argument, tolerance means you tolerate it. [URL]http://www.geopolitics.us/?p=465[/URL]

Many won't agree with this blog but at least that means you read it and were thinking about what I typed. I love my friends on here even though I want to strangle them at times, but it's the same with LDD, there are times I want to smack the hell out of him when he pops off with a comment to me on voice about America. Doesn't mean I love him any less, he is the same now as he was when I met him. Smartass to the core.

I heard this song the other day on the radio. I was so enthralled by it that I did something I never done before... I noted the exact time and rushed home so I could check out the station's website ([URL]http://www.ckua.com/[/URL]) and find out everything I could about the song (gawd, I love the internet).

So anyway I ordered the album (Artist: Quantic) and it arrived yesterday. It is playing on a my ipod as I tweak the site tonight. Here is the song:

[video=youtube_share;9912bRwjquY]http://youtu.be/9912bRwjquY[/video]

- Drew :paw:

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I caught the program I have provided a link to on the H2 Channel. I found it to be very interesting and thought provoking and sort of puts some points on some of the other things that I have been reading about and researching lately----not to be alarmist---but I do think the show brings up some very good points to be considered very seriously--not in a fearful way---but more of--"My eyes and mind are opened, and I no longer have any illusions that things in this world are still---Business as Usual."

I kind of wish that the producers of this program had not necessarily used the title they did for this show, "The Prophets of Doom"----it really kind of puts a more negative cast on the program than what this collection of experts come to conclude at the end of the show when considering all of the potential pitfalls that they feel we could face. They actually end on a positive note I think----a serious one, but still positive nonetheless.

When the show is aired on television---it comes to two hours in running length thanks to the commercials, but that they did make it available on YouTube, the length is right at an hour and a half---if you haven't seen this show--I would urge you to consider taking the time to watch the entire program.

[URL]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5e_gPJ2t9g[/URL]

What I do find the most important conclusion they come to and one I have come to as well---it really doesn't matter if any of those things come to pass in the near future or not---what I find to be important and serves as a motivating factor in my starting the process of totally rearranging my life to conform to what I think are some very clear realities--that when it comes to our very survival---we really have to come to rely upon ourselves and to our networks of friends and family.

By becoming more reliant upon ourselves, we need to start taking responsibility for doing things like raising as much food ourselves, at least when it comes to raising veggies and fruits---even if you only live in an apartment or flat, you can raise enough veggies to supply yourself and your family growing your veggies in containers of all sorts----if you have any sort of a yard--all the better----then set off sections of the using wooden frameworks to grow your veggies. You won't have to cut as much grass and have your yard sprayed by a lawn service. You might have to do some weeding---but this is good exercise and sort of a zen-like, meditative activity, which also has positive health benefits.

There are all sorts of resource materials out there to help you learn how to do that in bookstores via books and magazines and surely on the internet---best to buy hardcopy books though----since they are eminently portable, don't need any sort of power source to use them and they are not vulnerable to loss or destruction of our individual computers, smartphones and tab units or on the "Cloud" computing.

Mother Earth News is a great place to get started learning about all of this, so is Urban Farm.

I think that for reasons that are laid out in this film, like the fact that with oil now being a resource that is fast being depleted and the demand is still high for it----its a matter of supply and demand so ever increasingly--the days of really cheap oil is over, and with our current food supply system relying upon fossil fuels to grow, process and transport our food, food prices will only continue to rise right along with the price of fuel.
If some sort of major event comes down that shuts down that system----in a matter of days---every supermarket that you can get to is going to be empty of food.

We do need to once again return to a system of raising our food locally--it is as the one of the experts on the show said-----this is not a matter of being liberal, conservative or whatever--its a matter of pure simple survival.

When it comes to finding locally produced goods----in most places around the world----if you just look around---you will find that there are networks of people who are going in this direction. They are setting up networks where perhaps one person raises certain vegetables, someone else raises others. Someone might be raising Llamas and Alpacas to harvest their coats then they or someone else will spin yarn, someone else makes clothing from the yarn. One farmer might be raising either Bison or grass-fed, hormone free conventional cattle for beef and others having herds of dairy cows, goats and sheep for their milk---with everyone doing things in more natural ways and with crops--raising heirloom or the best quality hybrid varieties---certainly not using ones that contain Monsanto's GMOs that are now being found to contaminate crops being raised according to official Organic standards.

Not everyone can of course do what I am working towards, finding a suitable property to establish a farmstead, raising my own high quality veggies and some livestock---at least raising critters like chickens, turkeys and rabbits.

Even if you can't or wouldn't want to go live in the country---but want to connect to sources of locally raised veggies, etc--you can for a modest amount of money, find a cooperative where for a set amount of money---you can get a certain amount of field fresh grown veggies---and maybe with some co-ops--you might have to commit to spend some time actually doing some work with them---that is not a bad thing--it really is kind of rewarding to get out and work in a garden or barn to help raise crops or animals. It helps let you know that there really is a deep connection between ourselves and the food that we put on our table--I think that too many people today are now too disconnected with those fundamental connections.

When it comes to living in large metropolitan areas--I don't want to live way out in the country---but I surely don't want to be deep in the heart of a metro area either---where I am looking for places----it is out in the country but by car--if you can run one--is not too far off back into a city---close enough to ride a bike for sure if there is no gas or electricity to run the gas pumps.

Perhaps you might think that old Volty has gone around some sort of bend, perhaps---but I think that moving towards more self-sufficiency is a wise and prudent move.

We cannot rely upon government, the businesses, or much else of the formal structures in our society any longer--I think its clear that those who run those things have their own agendas--primarily that of holding power and money---and everything and everyone else be damned.

I am firmly convinced that we might not be seeing the end of civilization--but I do believe--that the way we have been living as a society is no longer sustainable over the long term and that a crash has to come. I think that if we really need to consider taking a step back from the way we have done things and consider finding a different way to structure and live our lives. We are certainly on the cusp of a major change. Even if you are of an age that you, yourself will not see the change--you owe it to your kids and grandkids to help them learn how to be more self-sufficient--because the younger then are----they are surely going to live to see the real crash come.

I am not saying that "you had better do this or else"--but I am strongly suggesting and urging that you do at least consider some of the things I say and what this show talked about---to go out and start educating yourself about ways that can make you and your family more self-sufficient.

There are other issues with raising your own veggies----it does tend to be expensive to buy organic for many reasons----one of which is once again--the stuff has to be shipped via truck to the store----once you get a stock of seeds and grow your own stuff--you can then begin to save and share heirloom seeds with others.

When it comes to the conventional produce found in supermarkets--not only are there the issues of residual pesticides and herbicides being found in them---you can also find GMOs (genetically modified organisms) in them. Some studies now coming out show that many of the genes that they put in crops to kill the insect pests that eat on them----those things are poisonous to us as well. One final thing with conventional produce----since for each category of vegetable, they only use a very few limited varieties---with two things relating to that--one that if the farmers don't use the chemicals to grow them----they don't do very well and if the chemicals go away---then they are even more susceptible to pests and diseases and with each successful generation of crops---the nutritional values of them go down to the point that it is estimated that within a few short years---most of the conventional produce we eat will have little to no nutritive value left in them at all.

Well----just some things to consider.

Some resources:

[URL]http://www.motherearthnews.com/[/URL]

[URL]http://www.urbanfarmonline.com/[/URL]


I just hope that I can get myself going with a good place, if and before one of these things happens---in the meantime though----I do have one property that I am going to be turning into a green grocer's garden this summer---just about to order my seeds in a few days, then start them next month being ready for planting after the last threat of frost passes and the soil grows warm enough to get the germination going for those seeds that are direct sown.