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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I'm not a bitch and not your bitch; not a "good girl;" absolutely, positively not your baby, honey, or sweetheart; I'm not a whore or a slut and no matter how you think I'm behaving while I'm sucking your dick and even less so should you be one of the very fortunate ones who's allowed in my ass.

I know a lot of bi guys can be... a bit feminine when they're with other guys; I know some guys do, in fact, want to be dated/courted and would love hearing terms of endearment coming from you and some really don't mind being called a bitch or a slut during sex... I'm not one of them. The thing is that if you and I get together for some kind of sex, I know you're a man and I'm going to interact with you like the man you are; to do anything else, to me, is disrespectful unless, of course, you let me know ahead of time that being treated like a girl would be fine and dandy with you... and I still might not treat you like a girl.

I learned early on to let guys know right up front that, duh, obviously, I'm not a girl; I'm not even an effeminate kind of guy. Yep - I suck dick; yep, I've been fucked. Those things, again, have always been owned by women and I even understand that some guys would be thinking like that when with a man... but with me, you'd be better off not letting me know what you're thinking while we're doing whatever we're doing.

Because I'm not a girl and I do not expect to be treated like one in any way. Now, I know how this might sound to a lot of guys and I do know how many guys I've made... unhappy over the decades because they want and/or expect me to act like a woman; I'm not gonna worship your dick; I'm never, ever gonna beg for it and I'm sure as fuck not gonna do or say anything, oh, like calling you "daddy" or some other dumb shit like that only serves to stroke your ego. One guy said, while fucking me, "Say my name, bitch!"

I broke his arm at the elbow and was ready to do even worse to him. I'm not in any denial or otherwise bullshitting myself about what I do when I'm with a guy: I know what it all looks like, what the roles are in sex and what they mean but just because I do "girly" things with guys, do not ever let it get into your head that I am, in fact, girly: That would be a mistake. I look at it like this: If you expect to be treated like a man - and I will treat you like one - then if I expect anything, it's to be treated like the man I am as well.

There's just some shit I'm never gonna tolerate. Like slapping me in the face with your dick; the last guy who did that got slapped hard enough to make him almost pass out. True enough, some men and even women like this... I don't and I wouldn't dare do that to another guy because I respect the fact that even though he's sucking my dick, he's still a man and, yeah, that goes for those very effeminate gay men, as well.

I knew a guy in high school who made the mistake of thinking a very effeminate gay guy I was friends with was as "girly" as he tended to behave; that guy spent weeks in the hospital thanks to the very manly ass-whooping he got from my gay friend... and all because that idiot forgot that gay men are still men.

I'd prefer that things never go like that. As long as we treat each other like men - and no matter what we're doing to each other - that just works. All that shit you might see when you watch porn? Leave it at the door. I'm not having any of it. You wanna give me a facial? I wouldn't, if I were you. You wanna be slapping on me, maybe choking me or otherwise trying to manhandle me? You really don't wanna do that - I just don't react well to it and my reactions tend to be... bad.

I am, really, really easy to get along with and I freely admit that I go out of my way to make it easy to have sex with other guys... just as long as you remember that I am a man and in every way that means. This makes me come off like I'm some kind of hard-ass or I'm just being difficult and, yeah, maybe even being a bitch about it and if that's what you think, well, you're entitled to think whatever you want to but make no mistake: This is the man that I am saying all of this stuff and, again, I learned a very long time ago that I just do not like being treated like a girl.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I suck dick and if I'm feeling you like that, I'm not opposed to being fucked. You want your dick sucked? Doesn't take a whole lot to convince me that it would be a good thing for both of us. But the one thing you should always keep in mind is that I am not a girl... so if you're of a mind to treat or even speak to me like I am, we're gonna have a problem and one I'm sure you do not want to have.

I remember the first time, while sucking this guy's dick, he said something like, "Yeah, girl... suck my dick!" and the instant I heard "girl" come out of his mouth, I was on my feet and punching him dead in the face before I was even aware that I had moved. Then he said, "Bitch, what's wrong with you?"

And I kept right on punching him. I was pretty insane, I have to admit. Yeah, I knew that I was into a kind of sex that has always been in the primary domain of women... but I'm still not a girl. I don't have their emotions, don't have their... confused way of thinking. I'm not... needy like that; I don't need promises to be made or kept, I'm not of a mind to lay down a lot of conditions in order for you to get into my pants, you know, as long as you're clean and not my idea of an asshole. I sure as fuck don't need you to be into me and if you're looking for me to be all into you, well, I'm never gonna say that I wouldn't be but don't hold your breath on that one.

In short, it would be best for all involved for you to remember that even though I'm a cock sucker, I am as much - and maybe even more - of a man as you are. You piss me off, I'm not gonna start crying; I'm more likely to cuss you out and, believe me, it's taking a lot of effort not to give into the urge to open a can of whoop-ass on you - I have a very bad temper and one that years of martial arts training barely manages to keep in check.

You don't have to date me; you don't have to court me; don't even think about trying to blow some dumb shit past me and like you'd do in order to get into some woman's panties: I'm a guy and I not only know about that dumb shit - because I've used it myself, I kinda excel at it and, as such, I know it when I hear it.

If we throw it down and there's not going to be a second time - and as far as I'm concerned, if you're expecting me to blow up you phone and beg for more of that supposedly good dick, I hope you're not holding your breath or waiting for me to do that and if you get miffed that I'm not calling and asking for more of that dick, well, again, you'd do well not to say anything to me about it or otherwise act like I'm at your beck and call.

You're not gonna like what I'm gonna say.[/SIZE][/FONT]

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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I remember my somewhat young lover asking me, after I sucked his balls dry, "Why haven't you fucked me?" - and I couldn't answer him right away... and when I did answer him, gods - I couldn't believe the bullshit that came out of my mouth, like telling him that I didn't want to hurt him and other such shit.

And hearing him say, "I know it's gonna hurt... but I want you to fuck me - I need you to fuck me."

I asked him why and he said, "I can't suck your dick and it ain't fair that you get left high and dry and, well, like I said: I want you to."

The moment when I lubed us up and fitted my slippery knob against his very virgin hole... and pushed; feeling my dick go right in him up to the hilt; feeling his body tense... then relax and hearing him saying, "That's what I wanted... fuck me; bust your nut in me..."

Watching my dick going in and out of him - and seeing that he's watching, too. Remembering how... special it is to be able to fuck another guy and how damned good it feels. Feeling my dick swelling in him; seeing the look on his face as he feels it, too; then the pumping... so delicious and seeing the look on his face because even if he can't feel it, he knows I'm injecting him with sperm. He loved it; said that the way we should do it from now on is I suck him off then get my dick in him. Long time or short time - didn't matter to him as long as I came in his ass... and like I'm supposed to... and like I wanted and needed to do.

Lying there later and thinking that, no, I don't always have to - or even feel like - fucking a guy... but when I do, just fucking do it and have fun.

Because it's supposed to be fun.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]How many times after that... stupid promise to myself have I been in bed with a guy - or wherever we happened to be - and we're happily sucking each other's dick... and I've heard him say, "Fuck me... stick it in me..." or he tells me that unless I fuck him, he's not gonna be able to cum... and how many times did I not do it when I knew that's exactly what I had to do... and wanted to do?

Too many times. How many times had I failed to bust my nuts wide open just being sucked... and knowing exactly what would make that happen? Again, too many times. My... objection wasn't moral; it just wasn't as fun as it used to be. I'd be with a woman who'd want it in her ass... and I'd balk and hesitate even though I knew that not doing what she asked me to do wasn't going to be a good thing and more so if I wanted to have sex with her again. And I'd fuck her in the ass... then ask myself how it was possible I could do this with her... but not with a guy. I was being stupid about it and wasn't of a mind to reclaim the joy that somehow got stolen from me or I just gave up and for some reason I couldn't really make sense of.

Feeling... ashamed to hear a guy tell me that I must not be as bisexual as I say I am if I'm not gonna fuck him and like I'm supposed to... and maybe, just maybe, that's why it stopped being fun for me... because it's what I was supposed to do and as if I had no say or choice in it. And letting that bullshit promise stop me from doing what I damned well knew I wanted to do: I wanna stick it in him. I wanna see my dick stretching his hole; I wanna feel his muscles trying to get rid of me and I wanna feel that moment when I get past his resisting muscles and all the dick I can get in him goes in him.

Just giving in to the nastiness of it. That moment when my dick swells inside him and knowing he can feel it, too; then the pumping, that sweet release. I realized that I didn't have to always do it... but when I wanted to, then, damn it, do it. Enjoy it and if I make him happy, so much the better. Pulling out of him and hearing that rather obscene sound; taking a moment to watch my spunk start to ooze out of him or listening to the evil giggles inside my head to see his hole all gaped open.

Enjoying this kind of sex again because it's supposed to be enjoyed.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Is it filthy? Dirty? Unbelievably nasty? Yes, it is... and that's some of the fun of it. Knowing you shouldn't have your dick in him and getting it in there anyway. Defying convention; bucking the system and, yeah, bucking traffic on that one-way street.

Being in the right position to watch it going in him; hearing and feeling his reaction to my entry... then hearing and feeling his reactions once I'm in and moving, working toward pumping my sperm into him. More idle thoughts: What's he really thinking about? Is he really enjoying this as much as he appears to be? Maybe thinking that this wasn't as good of an idea as he thought?

And, sometimes, do I really care what he's thinking or feeling? Well, I do... but when you've got your eyes fixed on your cock in his ass, yeah, well, such thoughts really don't mean anything... but unloading your spunk in his backside means everything and maybe for him, too.

There was a time where anal sex - either way - just stopped being fun for me. I swore off of it and didn't even go there for years and no matter what I felt like doing or what the other guy wanted me to do; if you're not gonna have fun and enjoy it, why do it at all. I even managed to convince myself that there will never be another time when I would actually want to fuck a guy in the ass... and it was a lie... and I knew it was.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Well, that's a whole different animal, ain't it? I've fucked so many guys and whether I "really" wanted to or not. It looks... simple. Get hard. Lube up with something very slippery. Get in position. Push. In it goes and you know what to do.

How many times have I been in a guy's ass, seeing my dick in him, and asking myself, "What are you doing? You know you're not supposed to be in his ass! How dare you be enjoying it!" Or, um, seeing my dick in him and marveling at the sheer fact that my dick is in someone's ass, the one place on the human body that has always been deemed to be a one-way street: Out... but never in... but there it is, huh?

Having idle thoughts like am I doing it right enough for him? Am I hurting him too much? Am I gonna lose it quickly or is it gonna take some time before I do... or I can? Sometimes even, "What's really in this for him? What is he really getting out of it other than a butt-full of spunk as well as a sore butt?"

And despite the fact that I grew up abiding by the rule that if a guy fucks you, it's only fair that you fuck him and knowing that if you didn't, well, you're gonna get talked about and in some very bad ways. Then having people ask what's kind of a dumb question: Why fuck a guy in the ass? Um, because it's the only other hole he has that can be fucked? That it feels good to fuck someone - period? Or trying to put into words what it feels like to be dick-deep in a guy's ass. Or having to debunk the notion that fucking a woman in the ass is different than fucking a guy in the ass... and the only real difference being the sex of the person whose ass you're getting ready to cream.

Is it enjoyable? Of course it is... unless you somehow manage to convince yourself that it isn't. Do you always have to fuck a guy? Well, no, not if you don't want to... but a lot of guys expect it; for them, it's the main course of things and the only reason why they do what they do with other guys.[/SIZE][/FONT]